chapotraphouse

I've got a lot of stuff still internalized about weakness, strength, and identity, so I will say when you are trying to suppress something and someone encourages you to release it it can be maddening. Because you think it makes you weak or a failure, and they're encouraging it. It's like offering alcohol to someone recovering from addiction. The main difference is that what they are holding back is not bad. It took me a long time to get the voice saying adhd was an excuse out of my head, and understand people saying I might have it were not insulting me or telling me I was weak or trying to weaken me, but showing me what they thought was true. I am pretty good at making space for other people and silencing judgement against them internally, but I still hold myself to a lot of things I know I shouldn't. I have the knowledge and will to change, if I didn't it would just be pain and anger.