microthoughts

like somehow we're moving away from the sun very slowly

could we induce this now actually?

Maybe because we all want this to work out and be a thing.

ughh

I'm on a train and the storm goes in the same direction. I'd like to get home sooner than the storm (I have no raincover), but I cannot do anything to speed up the things, which is quite frustrating.

Micro thought - had to convince a younger colleague that I was older by much more than they thought. Ie, my birth year starts with 19XX, not 20XX…

I ferried out to Lopez island, Wa. this weekend. I thrive in chaos but it was nice to have a couple days of peace and quiet.

Despite it not needing sun.

People denying realities like anthropogenic climate change. I can respect opinions, like applying full human value to an undeveloped fetus, but the straight up denial of what is verified truth I can't even tolerate. It's false. It's lies. It's brainwashed tribalism. And they are gonna dig their tribal community hole and stew in reactionary rage and fear with their incoherent arguments whilst following their strong leaders, because gods forbid they are wrong on anything. No, truth itself is gonna bend around the word of dear leader.

The hateful cult newspeak is also rubbing me, but the denial of reality is the killer. And the mindnumbing memes that try to outwit with one-two sentences on comprehensive subjects. Political memes are a blight upon humanity and should be banned. Thanks for reading my sour micro(?)thought!

but being in traffic, with the same people around you, in the same city, feels oppressive and annoying and shitty

i want a steady stream of power, not to have to worry about recharging and charge level every damn time i use the shitty thing that usually has a shitty battery

I feel guilty for using this community like a Mastodon, even when the sidebar/community encourages it. I have a Mastodon account for practicing another language, but sometimes I don't want the challenge associated with that mental exercise. 🤔

Anyway, I woke up today feeling absolutely tired, and it has continued all day. It's like wearing a weighted blanket, and trying to move. More mental than physical, though, and paired with slight irritability. 🧟‍♂️

It's probably because I've been working a lot (6-7 days a week, but with variable hours on each day)... and waking too early, but I still feel like I'm not getting enough done. 👴 My success in life has been due entirely to weaponizing fear into toxic productivity. Any slack in the line is interpreted by my brain as utter laziness.

Thank you for tolerating my brain spill and emojis. 🧠

the stillness of the afternoon...

it's like one of those zen things

probably a healthier way to consume information really rather than giving everything a 6 hour shelf life

Ads are everywhere, but I don't think I've ever bought something because of an ad. If anything they steer me away from their product. The amount of money, effort and bandwidth required to get all of these ads in front of my eyes only to be completely useless must be staggering.