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--be me high functioning autistic, struggle with social ques.
--begin highschool, theres a cute girl.
--decide to be extra friendly, take every available moment to be beside her and friendly.
-- 2 months go by, still doesnt notice my intent. Decided to be blunt.
-- tell her i like her, romatically. Says cool and walks away,
-- autism engage.mp3
-- do the same shit for 2 weeks
-- she tells me she want to be friends, I respect her wishs tho saddened.
-- walk with her in-between classes like all my other friends.
-- she calls me creepy and to stop stalking her. I explain im not stalking im just being a friend and just enjoy talking inbetween class.
-- 2 weeks go by, she doesnt say anything about me being "creepy"
-- go to B lunch where i sit by myself cause friends have A lunch.
-- phone buzz.mp3
-- random number of text message with photo of me 20 seconds ago at lunch table.
-- panic issues, i message who dis. They reply, you dont need to know stop stalking (girls name). I explain its not stalking if i go up and say hello and talk to them.
-- they dont listen, they tell me to stop being creepy. I ask again who this was. No reply...
-- i tell them ill get the cops involved if they dont reval themselfs.
-- lunch ends, goes to math class. Asks (girl) what she know about random texter.
-- (girl) says no clue
-- day ends, sleep like shit because of creepy MF.
-- finally get response, im (girls friend)
-- i sit at lunch table following day with her and ask whats this is about.
-- she says (girl) says im a creepy stalker that follows her around and stares at her. And that (girl) asked her to do this. I explain i like talking to her, and she engages back in a mutal conversion. And that im autistic and zone out.
-- she still insists im a creep
-- confront (girl) in math class "Why did you lie about this, just tell me you dont want to be friends" Girl refuses to talk to me and spreads rumors of me being a creep.
-- MFW i dont miss highschool dating.
TLDR- women gaslights autism into stalking and give lasting insecurity issues.
Creepy guy uses excuse of autism to justify being creepy despite clear verbal instructions and explanation.
Autism is not an excuse to be act however you want, people give you leeway not free lichence. Failing to pick up cues is one thing but you don't need emotional intelligence to know that following someone around like that is not acceptable behavior. None of my medically diagnosed autistic friends stalk girls and they'd all understand clear and direct instructions.
I suggest you reread, i do agree autism is not blanket excuse. However i did explain in detail that i was not stalking, or following her around in a creepy manor. I did this to ALL my friends, and all interactions where consentual. I did not harras or berate anyone who didnt want to talk. Many interactions included the phrase "do you want to chat on the way to class" to which i forgot to add for better context.
Also for better clarity (Girl) never said to fuck off (Girls friend) did.
If (girl) wanted me to fuck off she should have self advocated and say i dont want to be friends with you.
Because as stated "shes didnt want to be Romantic and just wanted to be friends" to which i did stop saying she looked niced and other things that could be takin as Romantic, and simply had small talk, asking about her day, talking about teachers and upcoming assignments.
Also i must add using autism as a lump sum to cover up creepy shit is not right. But i find rather moronic in your use case as you lump "all my autistic friends dont do that"
May i remind you that autism is a spectrum, not one person is the exact as the other. And added context would be beneficial if they were also high functioning. Comparing people on the spectrum is rarely ever apple to apples. "My one autistic friend starts screaming and crying when his peas touch his corn on his plate" Compared to "My friend misses social ques and struggles with communication"
Also via wikipedia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/High-functioning_autism
"High-functioning autism was historically an autism classification where a person exhibits no intellectual disability, but may experience difficulty in communication, emotion recognition, expression, and social interaction."
Good day,
Yes I very well understand its a spectrum but that doesn't mean you can write a blank pass for yourself and claim 'it's just a special aspect of my autism so I can't be blamed for objectively bad actions on my part'
If you have difficulty understanding emotion then use logic and analytical thinking to help. and to help you understand I'll be very clear and direct - I am telling you this because it's practical and useful advice which will improve the quality of your life.
Deaf children have to be taught that farts make noise, likewise in think maybe you don't realize how obviously manipulative you're being in telling this story and how you're arguing about it - this is what will drive people away and make your life harder, like the deaf kid might not know that people can hear him coming but the noise is loud to other people, you might feel that people can't tell you're trying to be manipulative about it and logic her into having to be nice to you but to her and her friend it's as loud as a moaning orgasm.
Logically you can devise simple heuristics to determine appropriate actions, s good one is to consider the actions of the other person and how they compare to the easiest path towards their possible intent. For example in any conversation the person will either want to continue it or end it, however they likely will want to remain polite and kind so won't be pushy or rude - are they adding to the conversation, continuing it, picking it up when it flags or are they giving short answers, mostly answering rarely asking?
The way you describe your conversations with her sounds like you're trapping her with her desire to be polite. For example 'do you want to talk to me' is a question most people wouldn't ask because it forces the person to pick beteeen two potentially negative options; yes or rudeness. It's why you'd generally hear it couched with a soft exit or left unsaid and replaced with an open invitation like 'oh maths is next, the homework was so boring' allowing them to end the conversation with something like 'yeah...' or start it with 'yeah, I didn't even read all the questions it was so boring...'
Of course it's not an exact science but it's very easy to see trends, if you saw a graph with all the conversation trajectories overlaid and it was all one person starting them and the other person taking the path of least resistance and rudeness towards ending them then you wouldn't need to know anything else to know she's not interested.
From her perspective you're seeking her out and trapping her in conversations that she can't politely get out of - especially because she likely doesn't want to hurt your feelings and likely has genuine affection for you as a human and a friend - however that affection does not mean she wants you stalking her or constantly popping up with 'hi, do you want to talk to me' traps.
So to go back to where we started, you can say that you weren't being creepy but what you mean is you didn't intend to be creepy. Seeking her out and trapping her in conversations feels creepy to her, to her it feels annoying and awkward because she doesn't want to be direct but you push her into it time and time again then even when she does you make it more awkward by trying to litigate it and argue your point and telling her that she's wrong about her feelings - people hste that, I bet you would too.
And here's an elephant in the room I'll make explicit because I know you might overlook it otherwise, when you're so ready with a link to Wikipedia explaining how your actions are justified by your autism it makes it very obvious that you're using this to explain why she's wrong to feel like she does. This is one of the many reasons that she's uncomfortable saying no to loaded questions like 'do you want to talk to me' no one wants to look like the assholw who's rude to the special needs kid. Yeah that's a hard pill but it's reality, if you want her to think of you as a nice, interesting and not creepy guy then you have to act like that - you can't use logic and manipulative conversational tricks to force her into emotions.
And yeah don't worry if you try a bit people will let you off a huge amount of mistakes and cringe but not because you're autistic, just because you're interesting and fun to know without being too much of a burden or bore.