Melbourne

I dreamt of pizza last night. Youse happy now. Also I'm calling this an undies free day.

Now I need to decide what ice-cream to have…

Gosh it’s still really warm out. Leisurely Saturday night bike ride to get dinner got sweaty quick. Expected it to be cooler by now.

Here's the schedule for mum's eye things. Was a bit drunk with the rhs I will redo that.

I've tried phone alarms / apps but this way seems to have a higher success rate. She's also supposed to be dropping 2 times after 8pm but she likes her baileys so that's up to her.

i'm trying I hope it's logical :( it's a lot of drops.

Woke up from a nightmare in which Mike Ehrmentraut was following me around for allegedly shoplifting. It was already so hard to go to sleep. I need it for today, my friend will be here at 8:30, body please...

I have been so tense and anxious over the sense that maybe I've made a horrible mistake and prioritised the wrong things. I hate this stomach-pit feeling... gotta suck up my choices though.

I love mornings, they smell and feel so good. 🙂

Beef brisket is on.

Slow cooking in tomato, sweet chilli, onion, stock cubes, thyme, garlic, Muscovado sugar, cinnamon, and of course Guinness.

I feel like I should save and back up any pictures or music I want to keep onto a hard drive and maybe even have a few versions.

Annoyed that I haven’t done so already because it’s a complete no brainer but life has basically been survival mode for a very long time and any kind of organisation has fallen by the wayside. Even now it seems like a mammoth task.

Physical media just seems like a sensible way to go. I envy the people who are organised and disciplined enough to ‘go caveman’, and also the people who can wrangle Linux.

While going through saving old pictures to my computer I found some of my old art. Doxable so I won’t post it.

But how the hell is it better and more prolific than my art now? To be fair it was basically just copying pictures I liked but there’s some original stuff in there. And back then I didn’t have access to any of the resources I do now, no education on fundamentals other than some completely forgotten lessons as a kid, nothing. I didn’t know to do frames or shapes. I just did the contour lines and paid close attention to the space between them. The hands are a bit wonky but I drew hands wtf.

I guess it’s just elbow grease. Which I’m currently so very short on 😮‍💨

One of the things I pray for is my nephew to have a secure life full of love, so that they aren't pushed into some of the scenarios and resulting relatively harmless but nonetheless questionable choices that I've made.

I want them to be able to choose the right thing secure in the knowledge that even if it blows back on them they are safe enough in life to withstand it.

I want them to be able to grow rather than just merely survive.