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[โ€“] [email protected] 6 points 2 months ago (2 children)

Sad, sometimes, and a little lonely most of the time. Been through a rough breakup this year. But getting better all the time! Hope you're well!

[โ€“] [email protected] 3 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) (1 children)

Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don't do very often.

I've just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn't enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we're both on the road to healing.

I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I've come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that's why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.

Time heals all, and I guess we've just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me

[โ€“] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Heya man, thanks for sharing. I hope you're doing okay. That sounds tough, and it's a hard realisation that love isn't always enough on its own - relationships take work outside of love, and that has certainly felt like a disheartening realisation for me. It feels the world is a little less magic now, but that's okay - there are better things coming for us both, that we will be better equipped to handle correctly with what we've learned from this. Happy Monday!

[โ€“] [email protected] 1 points 2 months ago

Thank you for these kind words, and I hope you heal too or at least find that magic again somewhere.

[โ€“] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Ever thought about adopting a pet ? it might be good for such cases ... good luck

[โ€“] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago

Thanks! I actually did consider it but my landlady won't allow pets, and if I'm honest I both can't afford and am too disorganised to take good care of something living. Good suggestion, tho!