ADHD memes

I'd trade with a dying kid. its okay, I'm just exhausted of the requirements for a "decent/basic" life. ive thought about changing what I consider "decent/basic"... but... energy.

about the one way trip.. it was a dark day. but it's always there in the background as a possible "solution/option"

I usually fantasize about having a terminal disease. or an accident. something out of my control that releases me from any "responsability" about not being strong enough to do what it takes to "succeed"/survive. like having a 9-5 job. I've had one for 3 years. worst time of my life. honestly I don't know how I survived.. the occasional beer with a friend that felt the same way and hope probably

I'm on meds (psychiatrist, and Concerta helped with basic things like doing bed and dishes) and recently tried psychologist as well. I quit after 5 sessions because I just felt we were going in circles. I already had thought about the options/solutions the psychologist gave me so... nothing new. and 50 euros (cheap comparing to competition) per hour is kinda expensive for my budget. "find your passion" yeah. I've been trying my whole life. I just get bored at some point, force to keep it going until I can't anymore and quit.

anyway, thanks for the kind words. hopefully I didn't trigger anyone with my hopelessness