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My first memory is of being in the backseat of my parent's car on the way back home in our neighborhood. That was ~35 years ago.

My memory is terrible, I have trouble with long-term memory. I have a few memories of when I was younger than 5. One of them I believe was from when I was still in the crib(definitely less than 2), but I have no means to verify it as a genuine memory or a false memory. I think it was suppressed for years until I unintentionally unlocked it. I can "remember" the picture of the room in the direction I was looking, vague knowledge of what was happening, and memory of the feelings I had at the time. I feel it was an important part of my life that, for better or worse, that has had an effect on who I am and has shaped my relationship with my parents. It is my earliest memory and it haunts me, persisting like a scar on my self. I would give anything to forget it or to confirm it as false.

I have certain memories that are crystal clear, mostly traumatic, from ~2.5-4yo:

• When I fell off the couch and hurt my dog by landing on her, resulting in her snapping at me and getting bit on the face (required significant reconstructive surgery and rehoming the dog to a family without kids just to be safe, which destroyed me and my dad who loved her dearly)

• Getting chased and bit by geese at the farm-style day care my parents sent me to before preschool

• When I got a Streptococcus infection in my forearm growthplate and had to spend a lot of time in the hospital and had a port in my chest for direct medicine administration to my hear

• When I put an unpopped corn kernel in my ear and had to go to the ER to get it removed (the one day where both my parents' insurance had lapsed. My dad was starting a new job the next day, naturally, though I didn't understand that at the time obviously)

• Being scared of my great grandma when she was dying in the hospital with all the tubes and her sallow, paper skin

• The first (and only time) I got spanked, by my dad, which ended with me peeing myself and my mom shouting at him until early in the morning (he wasn't abusive or anything, just a young dad who thought it was appropriate based on his upbringing that never did it again, apologized profusely to me and my mom, and still feels terrible about it)

I remember other, more positive, things from those ages, but not with the clarity or specificty that I recall these events. I remember watching the pokemon anime with my dad on the couch when he slept in after working the night shift, him making characters for me and teaching me how to play computer games via Everquest, my mom taking me to work with her when I was sad about not seeing her a lot, being with my aunt and cousins who lived just down the road, chasing garter snakes in the yard, etc.

I think it is like the red-light/green-light effect when driving: you are more likely to notice all the red lights you hit when driving because they negatively impact your normal routine, but forget the green lights that facilitate the routine. The positive memories become the general feeling you get of the time, the green lights. The bad memories stand out because they were disruptive and different, harsh red lights in your younger years.

I remember a shit ton of things. My problem is that memories from when I was 3 or 4 feel like they happened yesterday, while something that happened just yesterday feels like it happened in the distant past if I even remember it at all.

There's a name for this, and it's a symptom of ADHD, which I have; but I forgot it. In essence, there's no sense of time with my memory.

I have a vague memory from around 3 or 4 where a large dog was pushing me over while I was playing on one of those road carpets. Next memory was our second house when I was 5. Don’t really remember much before that.

This article fits with my experience. Earliest memory was from about 5 and only bits and pieces post that. My detailed memory fades pretty fast but there is usually like a framework I remember.

My first memory was when I was still in the hospital right after I was born. I know your eyes can't even see that much detail so I'm pretty sure I filled in the faces once I could see them. But from moving, I know what age my memories are from based on where I was. I have plenty of memories from when I was <5 years old. I have horrible short term memory, but long term I can store very detailed images.

I remember my childhood very well. With lots of details going back to a very young age.