2300mg is over 4x the recreational dose. That is literal insanity. No offense as Im sure you have used lyrica a lot longer and more than I do, but:
I took 150mg for a few months daily, without exceeding dosage and tapering by 10mg steps caused me to have suicidal thoughts. It took me 2 months to get off and I had waves of suicide ideations coming onto me all along.
You have suicidal thoughts not when "not taking lyrica". You have them when there is any, even slight, change of consistency in dosages. Its extremely reliable in giving me suicidal thoughts.
Im not sure how you take it (recreationally every few days, consistently or both), but not taking the same dose at all times is really good at giving you random substance induced ideation.
I wish you all the best because this will be one of the hardest rides for you! You deserve the help whether you want to live or die!
Also props for Lain, I really loved that series.