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I feel so isolated, so depressed and anxious whenever I think of things such as getting my GED or finally heading out to go to a dentist and get my teeth fixed. Or hanging out with my worthless, POS problematic family. I have no idea why. I know I'm not smart enough for the GED and I fear things going wrong. I just wanna get it done in just one or a few days. I just want to rest and live without a diploma since I believe I sorta have average intelligence as I was told before. I don't really have college plans cause I have no interest in anything, and I know there's some colleges out there that don't require a diploma or similar.

I just really wish I could pay someone to take it for me or do it in a way that doesn't take a long time or just bypass it. I don't even feel like living.

Quick introduction, I'm someone who has a massive fear of buggy/glitchy video game models for some reason, but over time I have gotten better I love horror films and I'm not really scared or disturbed easily. Forgot where I found this game and all things about it. One time, I was over my friend's house while waiting to set up a fun event and waiting for my boyfriend to arrive. The game was a creepy home invasion game in beta. I'll try to keep it short. Scary Guy breaks in, the sequence stars, I kill him after a while and that was it, things were going dandy. But suddenly, as blood began to pool when his body dropped to the ground, he held completely still, and his face SOMEHOW glitched out into a twisted, inhuman visage that was coloured completely white with his Eyes bulged widely out of his sockets, skin stretching like rubber, and his twitching mouth full of razor-sharp teeth.

So this weird thing with fear happened with me when vibrations get sent through my body, and before I fucking knew it, my mouth was wide open and it felt like someone threw a flashbang into the room due to my sudden hearing loss, only for me to realise that it was my own screaming filling up the entire room, and my friend's dog was completely alerted, leading to it circling around the room while barking loudly and having a huge panic. If that wasn't bad enough, the intruder's corpse began spazzing and throwing itself in random places, causing me to get even more scared, continue screaming and I started to thrash around profusely as if I were being lit ablaze or tased and I ended up throwing off the headset, alt + f4ing and uninstalling the game and even cleared it from my history (For some reason) before laughing like hell at myself a few minutes later.

I alerted so many concerned and terrified people who threatened to alert authorities for safety reasons and had to explain everything while trying not to die of embarrassment and I was heard by many other houses.

Hope you enjoyed this, this may be my only post here lol.