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Two weeks sober (booze hound) (hexbear.net)

submitted 18 hours ago* (last edited 18 hours ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]

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Spent the last two years basically wasted. Surprisingly have moved up a lot in my life in that time, something to be said about the functional alcoholic.

I'm making this post because I feel like fucking hell, and I'm tired and it's like every good feeling has been replaced by dog shit.

But I'm not like craving booze right now and so I guess I'm sort of not dependent on it at the moment. I've been active too, going to shows and parties and such. They've been dramatically less fun, but at least I'm not holed up and away from society like every other time I've tried to get off the sauce.

That's nifty.

Probably will have a drink sometime soon, whatever. Just nice to prove I don't actually HAVE to drink I guess.

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[–] [email protected] 5 points 15 hours ago (1 children)

yeah fair. for me, even when i'm not Having A Blast, i still find it to be a comfort around my loneliness-anxiety and evening sitting-around-in-my-apartment claustrophobia. idk, there's a very specific feeling i'm seeking to quell. hard to put it into words exactly. (in my megathread post just now and in other times past i've called it The Gnawing)

[–] [email protected] 4 points 15 hours ago (1 children)

I'm sitting here trying to word mine

It's like I can only feel positive about something (or someone honestly) when striving for it. When I get "the thing" my mind warps it into something negative, because if i have something it cannot possibly be good.

Booze allowed me some peace with this, but that has faded.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 15 hours ago (2 children)

DAE desire is the root of all suffering?????? thinky-felix

but i hear ya. i have a restless temperament like that, too. hard to be contented with the day-to-day, with what's right in front of my face and already in my life. don't have answers rn sadly, just commiseration

[–] [email protected] 3 points 15 hours ago (1 children)

Appreciate the commiseration, legitimately

[–] [email protected] 3 points 14 hours ago

anytime bruv, that's what comrades are for heart-sickle

[–] [email protected] 3 points 15 hours ago

I fear there is none but to find a way to accept your own nature and mitigate the worst impulses that stem from it.

it's a fucking nightmare lmao