So I thought I had figured myself till now. But I was clearly wrong...
So the last few days have been incredibly confusing as I reflected on my gender identity. I'm definitely a boy, that's for sure. I wouldn't want to go by any pronouns except he/him. The they/she stuff simply isn't me.
I don't want to dress up in a feminine manner (I don't think I would be comfortable in skirts and thigh highs and what not...). Like... I haven't tried that yet, but I really doubt I would be much interested in it. I like my current wardrobe.
HOWEVER, I want a feminine-ish body. Like... not boobs or anything. I find boobs quite repulsive. BUT I would definitely love to have a more feminine butt/dick. I like tucking, WHILE loving my dick.
I hate body hair/facial hair. The only place that I like hair on is my head. And while my hair is long-ish, it isn't girl-like long. Like... the intention is not to look like a girl.
I dunno, it's weird I suppose... Here's one way to put it. If estrogen didn't give me boobs, I would LOVE to take it. I would love to have a higher voice, better head-hair, and a girlier butt and dick. BUT I would still identify as a male while being in male-like clothes.
What the hell am I? I'm definitely not trans. I don't think I'm a femboy, as I would hate doing makeup/wearing skirts n stuff. I'm so confused.
Oh, and I'm gay if that's relevant.
I think a lot of people have desires for their body that they don't meet. I certainly do.
But as far as your post: sounds like you're a cis gay dude and you're pretty certain about that. That's about as many labels as you're probably going to strictly need for most interactions. Though I can't speak to the gay community as far as labels go.
You also don't necessarily have to use the femboy label or dress differently to be more feminine in a way you want to. Hope that helps.
Perhaps... I just met a nb person in the comments who seemed to have a similar-ish experience. They go by all pronouns. I didn't know you could do that while being nb!!!
I think I relate with their experience a lot more. Welp, I know what I'll be reading about the next few days! Let's see what comes out of it I suppose