Welcome to the latest in my series of "weh touchin grass" posts. The joke of this post here is that I got tested for allergens as a kid, primarily for cat and treenut allergies, and it was revealed that I have a minor allergy to trees and grass 
My absolute favourite internet interactions (other than big stinky discussion posts <3) are when I can actually get to know people, sorta. Because Autism this sometimes takes the form of an internal "dossier" of facts n traits about people that I add more to as I observe or talk to them. It sounds weird but I promise you it's fine, you have to trust me. More than a couple of times I've had really fulfilling connections with people, which is not something I can really say about people irl. egh irl people
Thing is though I can only really even do this online. Social interactions do not start for me irl. Anxiety is so fuckin thick that the couple of times people who seemed cool or interesting have approached me, I have literally run away. I can't do it, is all. Fhis is also why I never followed up on poking that queer place in my town or finding orgs or whatever, I would die if I went inside a place.
I could take either an SSRI/SNRI or maybe loprazolam about it? But fuck that, seriously. The former flattens me, and the latter... I'm already taking tram longterm, am I gonna add barbituates to that list?? So I'm gonna keep being a weird little anxious ball that can only talk to people through a keyboard. Statement On Touching Grass.
I love you bear website.