Asklemmy

I've considered making a youtube channel discussing politics with a heavy emphasis on organizing unions. I'm extremely proud of my achievements as a part of a successful union campaign, and I want to share what I've learned, give folks some of my war stories, and teach people the political and practical necessities to organizing. The reason I haven't is because I feel like I would get entirely drowned out in the political youtube space

A novel. First because I'm not sure on some key aspects of the plot, second because I'm not an amazing writer

Sobriety

A sequel to my first novel that people regularly ask me about 12 years after I finished it. I published it myself and sold to friends, family, work acquaintances. Two young kids and a busy job wildly delayed any free time I might have for grand modern fantasy. One of these years.

Learning any instrument and creating music

I just constantly have ideas that need a lot of setup and never have any time.

contact microphones on a canvas run through distortion making noise art is probably the most likely thing to happen next, but again I never seem to find the time.

I wanna learn more about poetry. I love reading poetry. I've written some too. Some of those even got published. But I feel like I don't really understand how it works. I can write decent lines, make things rhyme, or not if that fits the tone better. But I don't really understand why it works, if you know what I mean.

I guess I kind of want to study about how to analyze and appreciate poetry in a structured way. I wanted to take a few courses, but I'm in USA and they only have courses on Western poetry, which I'm not really that interested in. (It definitely very good, but I'm more fascinated with Indian, especially Bengali poetry. That's what I grew up with.)

So yeah, IDK how to do it. But I'll love to. Maybe I can mail some professors and ask for books? Or maybe actual poets might be better? I'm not sure. But I'll love to do it one day.

I have several small ideas that seem like they'd go together in a work of fiction, but there are also so many gaps that seeing it ruins any forward thinking I might have about it.

I said I'd make a musical RPG video game, and spent the last six years as a solo Dev for it. It's now coming to steam at the end of this year.

Next I want to write a musical set in New Zealand about the Maori Land Wars. I have two Maori brothers who were embarrassed of their skin colour (rural NZ is pretty racist). I want to show how formidable and powerful a people the Maori were/are, in a style akin to Les Mis.

I keep telling myself I'm going to draw monsters. But I never do.

What about starting and not finishing?

This song that I've wanted to record for the past 15 years.
It started stagnating when my preferred DAW changed a lot with the newest update, to the point where I had a hard time being productive in it. The struggle with new features that I didn't like, and old useful features having been hidden (or even removed), took away the joy of composing, recording, and arranging.
And then I had kids. Four of them.
Then came a period of financial distress, necessitating monetization of every lucid moment I had. The stress killed any remnant of creativity.
However, I'm doing A LOT better now, both economically and mentally, so I started looking for a new DAW. I really fell in love with bitwig during the trial period, so I bought a license a few day ago, and I've started playing around with it, taking baby steps in learning to be as productive with it as I was with Sonar back in the day.

Webdev. Wanted to do this to increase my tech skills and insulate myself from several degrees of idiocy at work. Just haven’t had the wherewithal.

Pottery and learning blender and creating characters which I then can animate

Welding. I'm currently putting my woodworking on hold because of other project, so i really can't start another until i finish the current one and finish whatever i'm trying to finish with my woodworking

Methadone for F2P Skinner-box games. An endless treadmill of dungeon-crawling, basically knocking off Path Of Exile or similar - but aggressively free. No mechanism whatsoever for taking your actual money. It'd use all the tricks that make spending bullshit currencies feel good, but you'd actually find those currencies, like it's a video game or something.

A key conceit of the modern-fantasy setting is that credit cards are naturally occurring. Magic understands that plastic is money now, so they just kinda spring forth, as loot. Maybe less than loot. They'd grow on trees. Have as many as you like - you'll enjoy it less than playing. The game's incentive against spraying cash at every problem is that you still have to examine the in-game model and type in some long sequence of numbers to get a random quantity of dollars. It's amusing but not really fun. You'll enjoy the game more if you just play it.

What you'd spend that fake money on is a trickle of procedurally-generated variations for every form of content I can think of. Swords, guns, hats, capes, hairpins, familiars, particle effects, et very cetera. A maximized possibility space of stuff to look at and go "want." None of it's ever exactly what you had in mind, because each thingamajig is a random sixty-four-bit number. That entropy translates to a bajillion trim and shape combinations and then several materials and colors on top of that. There'd only need to be a few dozen models for each thing, and a few dozen textures for each layer, and their distributions would drift over time to create a sense of changing fashions.

A lot of this was a reaction to every live-service money-pit having "seasons." That cyclical change would be textual and central. Summer's ending, and it'll come around again, but it won't be the same summer. So - gear has affinity for its period in time. A summer sword is especially good against summer enemies. It'll struggle against any lingering spring enemies, and eventually, against emerging autumn enemies. By winter's end it's just a prop. You can keep it as a display piece if you really like its randomized appearance, but all of its stats are gone.

Loadouts are visible as a partial halo over someone's head. Their offensive and defensive capabilities are represented as shapes along that crescent, sliding from the near future into the oncoming past. Someone optimized to hell for right now will have one great spike at the center. And you can probably tickle through their armor with half-faded sword from last season, or any mediocre early drop for next season. All these things have their place and time. There's never a reason to spend real money on them. They don't last. They're not real.

I want to paint the Dinosaur Train song "Dinosaurs A to Z" dinos on a large canvas for my son.

Record an indie album with mostly acoustic instruments then send it off to a DJ to mix and master. It wouldn’t be a remix then, more of a collaboration.

There are games I want to make. I caught long COVID and barely had energy for my job. I decided now that I got laid off for having an invisible disability, I can learn how to make games while I can't get a new one, but I'm having issues thinking long enough to learn... I've almost started my game and that's where I'm stuck.

I want to buy an old police cruiser (crown Vic) and chop it up into a rally car, and do the gambler 500.

I actually did start once, but didn't get very far.

I wanted to design a mall out of Legos. I got it all set up on Stud.io, and I even started making an entrance with doors, lights, a drive-up and a little park. I'm not good with the building techniques, so it's a super basic flat wall and everything. Also it takes a long time to do much of anything in that program.

I have a factorio comic/vid idea I’ve been kicking around in my brain forever. Kinda made a story board of it but realized idk how to make story boards. Or how to tell stories, or how to make comics or animate things lol So if it’s ever gonna get finished it’s probably gonna be some shitty napkin comic 😂

I wanted to learn how to make karaoke subtitles on music videos. But not plain subtitles, ones with effects/animation. From what I could gather I would’ve needed to learn how to use adobe after effects and some sort of subtitling program. But (at that time) I could never find any tutorials that started from square one and assumed you knew nothing of the process so that didn’t really go anywhere. And can’t really try to get into it now as my copy of after effects is really old and I wasn’t able to get it to install on my new computer.

My lesson planning for this year.