anti_cishet_aktion

Visit with the mother in law went well. Me and the boy were nervous when she arrived, shook my hand formally, and gave us a big blanket with the Virgin Mary on it, but the first night I overheard the him telling her how I was supportive and important to him, and she warmed up real quick. Then she made me sweet tamales with nesquick and cherries and chocolate syrup, which I had never even heard of, but were tasty once I mentally recategorized them as a type of muffin.

Me being trans never even came up (at least not while I was around), and on the last day I just got the normal mother in law experience where she just criticized how clean I was keeping the house and told what kinds of dinners I should be cooking for her son. It was a lot, but in a gender-affirming way.

Lady has a history of homophobic comments so we were hella worried, but we think she might have expected me to be like, a dude, rather than just a shy nerdy girl who is more "traditionally feminine" than his tomboy exes.

Probably will be a long while before I see her again, so glad I left a good impression.

Realizing that I am trans is fine and good, but now I have no idea how to proceed, what it concretly means for me. It's all really confusing. Also a lot of self doubt, of course.

Edit: Seeing she/her above my username already makes me very happy though.

Went out in a dress in public for the first time a few days back. Got a ton of compliments at that party. So it was a fun night even if I didn't care much for the actual party part.

I find it amusing how literally as soon as I start presenting more fem I get far more compliments on my outfits and appearance than before, even if I still don't really pass as anything but androgynous.

I'm a few days late 💀 I set a reminder on my phone so that won't be an issue anymore lol. fwiw a thread was made like 6 hours ago and I only realized after I posted. I thought about which to keep and went with this one only bc quite personal things can get posted here and I wasn't sure how everyone felt about inbox notifications for every comment going to someone else without any discussion prior. just for wanted to mention that for transparency

anyway good morning/afternoon/evening

<- my gal pal and me being cute and gay on the couch together

liquid eyeliner is much easier if you brace your hand on your cheek. i have become much more dangerous since learning this

I filled out my name change paperwork! Now I just need to go to court

Told a couple of more coworkers this week I'm bi. Got some good results. Mostly in reference to the in jokes we make about me finding a girlfriend someday. I say to them that it might not necessarily be a girl. I feel more comfortable about being who I am. ❤️

Came out to 2 people about being NB and using genderneutral pronouns and it's been great

I’m still in contact with and regularly see a lot of old friends from childhood (we all grew up in the same neighborhood and most of us still live there). I came out to them as trans earlier this year and they’ve all been very accepting of me. They refer to me by my new name and pronouns. Most of them are cishet men, a couple of them are queer or non-binary.

Despite their acceptance I feel like I am becoming more distant from them by the day. They haven’t really done anything wrong… but I just feel like I’ve been masking and pretending to be a different person my whole life and that’s the person they’ve grown to know. And when I see them I feel a sort of reflex to act like that person again. It’s a bit traumatizing and it sucks because I still love a lot of them but sometimes I just don’t know if I can be with them.