AdmiralDoohickey

joined 1 year ago
 

Listen to it, it's pretty good. The group that made it also created arrangement albums for various Falcom games and this time some pro composers like Raita and Eichiro Yanagi have also contributed

[–] [email protected] 13 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I feel like I have lost my identity after 1year of job-searching and subsequently work. I don't understand how things came to this point, I feel like all of my personality has crushed by the 9-5. Does everyone feel this hollow or am I that unable to exist

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I think it counts the countries with NATO bases as occupied which I think is fair, there is no way those countries can do whatever they want with yankee boots on their soil

[–] [email protected] 15 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

I have to expunge the last bits of liberalism from myself. Shit like still eating meat once in a while, not wearing a mask when out with friends and ordering delivery when too tired to cook like a fucking treatlord. This site has unironically helped me in a ton of ways and I thank every one of you for this

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[–] [email protected] 8 points 2 weeks ago

Work has broken my mind to the extent that I regressed to wanting to buy shiny Yu-Gi-Oh cards even if I know its a bad idea. My job isn't even that hard but it's still exhausting to have to take the 1h commute, mask and socialize, stress over my responsibilities and fake working even if my energy reserves are done for the day.

I don't understand if I am just naturally lazy or if the autism+ADHD combo is making this harder than it is for NTs.

If I didn't have my gf I don't know if I would be able to stand this situation. I barely manage to now, only by taking drugs and eating emotionally (I have reached my max weight so far).

At least I do some fun stuff from time to time like playing Kingdom Hearts for the first time (it was one of my childhood hyperfixations), watching quality media such as Twin Peaks with my gf and playing with the yugioh cube I assembled with the few friends I still have.

[–] [email protected] 30 points 2 weeks ago (19 children)

Is there any way to reverse this? My girlfriend strongly suspects she has mild brain damage since she was infected with what was probably covid19 sometime before it became known, and it impacts her daily life somewhat. Is there any point in going to a neurologist? Thanks

[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 month ago

Void Stranger but I am not sure if the essaybros have found it

[–] [email protected] 35 points 1 month ago (3 children)

I can picture a type of person that would enjoy Elden Ring for its artistic value but suck at games due to reasons outside their control (bad reaction times, poor concentration, sensory processing difficulties etc) or even due to not having enough time to "git gud". Why shouldn't they have their easy mode? Other mediums aren't that inaccessible to people

[–] [email protected] 13 points 1 month ago (1 children)

It's absolutely ableist. My ADHD makes me worse at games for sure (and also way less able to tolerate punishing design such as the Dark Souls corpse runs), also some things like tapping rapidly I just can't do at all. The only answer gamer bros have for me is "git gud" or its even worse evolution "skill issue".

It really triggers the RSD sometimes but what can you do, I just play easier slop now (especially since work has crushed my soul) and have more fun. I would actually love a website that lists the bullshit in each game like infrequent checkpoints, difficulty spikes, lack of quest markers etc so I can know to avoid them.

[–] [email protected] 8 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I don't really have intense sensory issues but ketamine analogs help me introspect and think without the anxiety caused by OCD or my emotional baggage so I really like them.

I have to warn you, if you overdo it with ketamine you will destroy your bladder. Also, take EGCG supplements when you trip because it might reduce the bladder damage (according to a study on rats it worked, no study has been done on humans AFAIK but it might work).

[–] [email protected] 5 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) (1 children)
  1. CrossCode (banger jazz fusion+prog OST, zelda-like dungeons, decent story about self-acceptance, great combat and bosses)
  2. Katamari Damacy (cozy, banger OST, wacky gameplay)
  3. ZeroRanger (GOATed OST, great aesthetic and story-gameplay integration)
  4. OFF (disturbing atmosphere and a story that's up to interpretation, artistically brilliant imo)
  5. Xanadu Next (japanese isometric dungeon crawler similar to Diablo but without the random loot and with a different build system, the music and atmosphere is pretty good, I also thought the story was pretty decent, make sure you collect all the records if you play it)
  6. Trails in the Sky trilogy (JRPGs with a great positional battle system, banger music and very charming and well written characters. Also, the world building is great. The next game in the series lost the charm imo, but most people like it as much)
  1. Ys: The Oath in Felghana (isometric action JRPG with gameplay that is a mixture of hack&slash, bullet hell and platformer, it's pretty unique. Also yhe music is good)
[–] [email protected] 4 points 2 months ago

The issue is sitting on a desk instead of a couch for even more of the day. I already had a low tolerance for such game systems (dunno if it's the ADHD), so now it's absolutely demolished and I feel you

 

I am sitting on a desk PC the whole day at work, which I believe has caused my ability to play games on my PC to diminish. I have found the following solutions, so I am asking to see if any of you has done something like that:

  1. Buy a console (the easiest)
  2. Connect the PC and the TV to a router to form an Ethernet LAN, and stream from the PC to the console using Steam Link
  3. Connect the GPU's HDMI output to the TV's and the computer screen's inputs using a 1x2 HDMI switch

With solutions (2) and (3) converting the PC to a console so I can sit on the couch and relax.

Also, have you found your tastes change after starting work? I used to be into games with complex stories and/or challenging gameplay but now I feel to tired for that.

Thanks

 

She wanted me to make this post, because she is not sure if she is just "weird" or if she can get diagnosed with ADHD and/or autism and make her life a bit easier. The symptoms that bother her the most are the following:

  • Sometimes walks away from uninteresting conversations without realizing (with familiar people) with strangers, feels like being held hostage.

  • Intense focus to the point of forgetting to eat, drink water and neglecting to go to the toilet.

  • Periods of low mood and anhedonia vs periods of intense obsession(?) and excitement with some activity (specific game or game genre, desktop customization).

  • Diagnosed with dysthymia and BPD traits (due to self-harm).

  • Suicidal thoughts since 14 yo but never made an attempt.

  • Low self esteem.

  • Persistent interests for many years in which she has made great contributions.

  • Does not like to go out much and feels dirty after going out.

  • Very annoyed by insects, afraid of bees and wasps.

  • She is a perfectionist.

  • In kindergarten, she would not go out for recess if she was still in the middle of doing something (finishing a drawing).

  • When learning how to do something, she liked repeating the process e.g. making boxes out of paper, drawing the same image.

  • Always sits with her knees close to her chest.

  • Occasionally rocks back and forth or from side to side sometimes repeats certain sounds / jingles / song melodies.

  • She thinks in images instead of words, except when having depression-related thoughts (e.g. "I am useless"), or positive thoughts ("I can do this") or when daydreaming scenes with dialogue.

  • Because of this, speaking is hard for her as she has to translate the images to words.

  • Performs great at work but gets burned out quickly.

  • Is bad at socializing, and has cut contact with her old friends and does not want to go back to having friends

  • Zones out of conversations.

 

My gf has the correct political vibes so to speak, but no theoretical basis or knowledge of history. However, she is interested in watching documentaries on the subject, so which are the ones you found most valuable? Thanks in advance

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submitted 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]
 

I finally found a job so I am going to move out of my parents' house soon, in order to live in the large city where the job is located with my gf. I should be happy about finally becoming independent and being able to see her every day, however I only feel dread about the transition, the lack of free time for my interests (probably intensified due to my shit executive functioning) and the fact that I will miss my family. How did you handle such a transition?

 

I am in the interview process for a job in a research group and it is going well so far. The only issue is that I was attracted to the person that interviewed me and I am going to be working with if I get hired.

My girlfriend is the most important person in the world for me so I don't want to risk catching feelings for someone else, but I also need to find a job if I am to rent a place to finally live with her.

What would you do in my case? Would you stop the interview process and try to find a job elsewhere or would you go for it and trust that you would do the right thing?

This question might sound deranged to you, but I have the full autism/ADHD/OCD combo so I am very out of touch with how the average person thinks.

 

Other themes made me feel like a heinous person, but they never made me doubt my connection to the most important person of my life.

Why the fuck should I have to constantly doubt whether I am truly attracted or not to the girl that I fell for after a single conversation?

Why should I hyperfixate on small differences of opinion and catastrophize about them instead of just feeling grateful about the wonderful person in my life?

Why should I worry about her cheating in me, or the inverse when everything is going well?

I am just so so so so so tired of this shit dude

 

I reduced my 150mg / day dosing by just 10mg and I already feel depressed, very irritable and self harming out of nowhere for the last 3 days. Am I doing this too fast?

 

For me it is Rabbit & Steel, bc I want to play bullet hell FFXIV with my gf: https://store.steampowered.com/app/2132850/Rabbit_and_Steel/

Other than that and Silksong (never ever) I don't have anything else on my radar for 2024 and beyond (it doesn't help that I am picky)

 

I was really let down by FFXIV: Endwalker, especially after Shadowbringers which had a really good story (with those juicy socialism / climate change themes).

It felt (to me) as if the game transformed into complete capeshit where half of it was unsatisfying resolution of loose ends and the other a hamfisted story about optimistic nihilism vs negutilitarianism (the previous expansion covered hope vs despair well enough so it was kind of redundant as well imo).

Why does every long-term JRPG project have to go to shit (similar to the Trails series after Sky the 3rd or Azure depending on who you are asking)? Why must capitalism make every piece of media shitty in one way or another?

Rant over, feel free to post your own

 

I thought EoD was pretty mid and SotO has less content than other expansions, but my girlfriend loves the game so I want to play it with her.

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submitted 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]
 

She is at the point where she has a work-related breakdown at least once per week, and wants to quit her job. If that's what it takes for her to get better I am completely fine with it, but I can't help but think that this would happen in any job, because:

  1. She wants to work the exact hours listed in her contract, without counting breaks of any kind so she effectively works more than 8 hours per day. She doesn't want to cheat her employer, despite knowing about wage theft.

  2. She doesn't want to inconvenience anyone, so she consents to doing things that are too much for her. The biggest offender here are the work trips, she is very introverted and socialization tires her out, especially considering that she fakes her facial expressions and the way she speaks in order to fit in, so having to do that for 4 consecutive days with her coworkers is really taxing for her. Despite that, she goes anyways, because she doesn't want to inconvenience her manager and coworkers and comes back in a worse state than before she left. This also applies to working on things she doesn't like, which might have been avoided if she tried speaking to her manager (who is a pretty decent person luckily).

I have also been burnt out during uni, and from experience know that if you don't stop on your terms, when your body and mind "tell" you you are at your limit, you are going to collapse in a much worse manner, so I want to prevent this somehow. But I feel like I can't do anything except observe her walk a dangerous path without robbing her of her agency and that's frustrating. Does anyone have some ideas for this?

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