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The cops were already waiting for me last night. Not even driving around. Two patrol cars this time, parked next to each other by one of my favorite intersections. They got to see me pace in style as I waved passing them by 👋😀🐕‍🦺

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Fun fact! In April 1982, Key West seceded from the US and established the Conch Republic when the Feds started enforcing a roadblock that made travel between the Keys and the mainland a pain in the butt.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conch_Republic

I can't remember lol, but I think the video was a nice boost to the surge at the time.

As far as funny stories, I'm undergoing EMDR and that comes with these intense rushes of pent up energy. To release that energy in a healthy way, I've been going for long (3+ mi/5+ km) walks around my neighborhood at night when it's nice and quiet. I also wear my earbuds and listen to music that matches whatever it is that I'm processing. However, there are some things to this.

One is that I'm going for walks with 120 lbs (55kg) rottweiler, so that comes with a certain connotation. Two, I'm dressed in my worst rags because I don't want to spend the nice clothes on these walks. The nice clothes is for social events. Three, I'm walking to release energy pent up from difficult experiences, so my pace and demeanor are probably visibly aggressive. Sometimes, I have to slow down to let the rottie take a break. Four, I live on the edge of a pretty fancy upper-class neighborhood, so they are used to a certain presentation that I am definitely not meeting. The only time they see someone like me is when they are trying to avoid people that are asking for money at the gas station or off ramp. Five, whenever I see anyone else out walking, I cross the street because I don't want to interact with them, have small talk, or stop my process. What I imagine they see is this madman going through the shadows at an insane pace making all sorts of angry gestures accompanied by a bear disguised as a dog. So ereyesternight, I'm pretty sure I got the cops called on me because there was a police car driving around slowly with their static blue lights on. When they got near me, they flashed their spotlight at me and slowed down. I nervously waved back 👋😬🐕‍🦺. Luckily, they left me alone after that. I'm pretty sure they already know who I am anyway. Still, this is more evidence that I'm a 40 year-old Sam from Atypical.

Thanks for checking in.

Weed and Prince Buster.

Can you elaborate on this pls?

Haitain history radicalized me.

Haitian history is so interesting. They have been punished for being the first successful slave revolt. Have you seen the movie Burn!? If not, I highly recommend it. It can be an upsetting movie, I think it's essential for anyone that wants to understand the transition from slave to capitalist economies and how racism is ingrained in all of it.

I’m an Anarcho Syndicalist that is deep into mutual aid networks and community outreach in my neighborhood. Community organization is so important and rewarding in my life now.

Nice! 🏴🚩 I've been meaning to get back into volunteering locally. I appreciate the encouragement your comment gave me. If you don't mind sharing, what communities are you working in and how did you get active in them?

spirit shown within the culture

Yes, I love it! I've been obsessed with it for like the past month. Music, analysis of music, general emotional expression, stories of prominent figures, the deeper meaning of stories, understanding privilege, strong sense of community and compassion, self-reliance and rightful mistrust of systems, acceptance, strong faith that helps navigate life and overcome adversity, and even the language. OMG the language. So many metaphors and subtle yet straight-forward communication. I might be too obsessed 😬

People need 3 things to commit suicide:

• social isolation
• sense of burden
• capacity

Social Isolation

If the person feels alone, even if surrounded by people, they're meeting this criterion. Loneliness is social pain because being alone was guaranteed death back in the day. Being socially isolated is literally painful.

Sense of Burden

If the person feels that all they do is drag people down, then they may see that their existence is a drag. Match this sense of worthlessness and parasitic existence with the pain of loneliness, and the person in a dire hopeless situation. To them, there is no point to being alive. They're in constant inescapable pain and not only contribute nothing, but they are spreading that pain onto others...at least that's how they see it.

Capacity

This refers to the ability for someone to be able to kill themselves. Do they have the means? Pills, car, rope, firearm? Military people in general are at higher risk because they are more likely to have firearms. But one thing that I think is overlooked is that they've been trained at a brainwashing level that violent killing is the ultimate solution to problems.

Regardless, not having the capacity is a major protective factor, which is why people get isolated in settings that prevent them from killing themselves. I'd like to point out how fucked up this is though. We are taking a person that is in so much pain they want to die, and placing them in a physical environment that prevents them from that. While necessary as a last resort, it's torture.

What if when someone says their in pain, we believe them? Maybe we offer millions of other opportunities to turn their life around. And if they're not grabbing on to those opportunities, work with them to solve those barriers. Maybe placing blame on them solely increases their sense of burden.

If you're in pain, I believe you ♥️

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Right‽ I think it's a great idea. I am going to look into it. I need to figure out what kind of camera I can use, but also need to consider the ethics with it. I don't think people would appreciate me posting them on the internet without their consent, especially if it is with negative connotation. The public can go on a manhunt and hurt people's lives when they may have just been having a bad day, following orders, or their behaviors were misinterpreted. If anything, I'd likely blur out their faces to protect their identity.

Thanks for the encouragement 🙂

Some jerk keeps defacing the pumps at a nearby gas station. First was that stupid sticker of Biden pointing and saying, "I did that!" Those stickers were removed, so now they carved "FUCK BIDEN" into the pump. I wish I could pump gas without having to subject myself to someone's political views or hate.

I think people should get married only if they have a 100% intrinsic drive to do so. If you're going online asking others, then you shouldn't get married. It's like you're trying to find an excuse for or an approval to override something that is telling you not to get married.

If before you met this woman, your future dream wife's job was porn, then go for it. If not and rn you're kinda just kind of like I-don't-know, then don't. Stop even thinking about it. It's not an option.

Honestly, it seems like you probably shouldn't be wasting your time with this woman. If she has an Only Fans, then she's using sex to take from men. You're more likely than not, one of those men because that's how she sees sex and men. Men are a source of income and sex is the service. It's all transactional. Of course, she's not going to come straight out and tell you that because it would ruin her game. Kinda like she probably doesn't go on her videos and says, "I don't find any of you attractive. This is all a show to get paid and validation," because no one would want to watch. She's going to be the same with you.

I recommend that you look into emotional manipulation tactics used by abusers. When you do so, be honest with yourself. Mind your boundaries.

ELI5 anyone?

I got all of you thieves. I think I might look shady or at least like someone that is going to steal. It's prolly cause of my demeanor, behaviors, attire, and tattoos. I also act pretty weird when I'm by myself, so that's when it usually happens. On a few occasions when I felt like I was being followed, I have tested it by going in directions that another shopper likely wouldn't go in. Yep, I get followed. They send a stock person to the aisle to move shit around. Like the Publix macaroni really needed to be neatly replaced. Sometimes they make it evident that they are watching me at the self checkout scanner like a warning. They stand at the end. Why are they getting paid to stand there just as I showed up? Hmm. Now that I think about it, I have a good idea for a YT channel. I'd wear a discrete body camera every time I go shopping alone and post myself getting following or warned.

If you see me in the store, I got their attention, so you can go at all the good stuff. If there is a Target security person in here, from what I've heard people confess to me, the ones that are stealing are the ones you would least profile: middle-class light-skin women that appear aloof. They're only running half the shit thru the self checkout scanner. If you catch them, "Oops! I must have not been paying attention. Silly me." I'm not stealing shit. I know I have eyes on me everywhere I go.