it's really depressing smelling wildfire smoke
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yea vol 3? it just kind of like, it's a mouthful, but im not sure how else Marx would've titled it. Since it is descriptive of the chapter
Definitionally moving away from that binary of that mute/non-mute is very useful. It makes a lot more sense to see it that way. It just something I never thought as a spectrum before. And definitely talking about these things help a lot. I'm very isolated so seeing what you wrote or other discussions about similar stuff on here has been helpful, especially in also understanding myself as well.
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thanks Marx for the long chapter titles such as "Chapter 10. Equalisation of the General Rate of Profit Through Competition. Market-Prices and Market-Values. Surplus-Profit" or who could forget "Chapter 9. Formation of a General Rate of Profit (Average Rate of Profit) and Transformation of the Values of Commodities into Prices of Production"
Thanks for the response! That was insightful. I think what you said about being on a situational low speaking spectrum is really helpful. Since that feels fitting for me? I like it. It does feel worth shifting my choice of words for that distinction since, I'm not physically incapable of speaking. I can speak and say things, yet like, not exactly? It just feels more like I have a filter on my speech that just garbles everything and it just really makes it difficult and , and because of that, I'm just really use to communicating other ways besides speaking because of it. But I can speak just with difficulties, and so saying im non speaking just doesn't feel right. It def. would be worth for me to like reach out or at least read materials from advocates at the very least. Since in a way I just feel like im in a sort of odd spot? but seeing it as a situational low speaking spectrum helps a lot and I can also see how selective mutism applies to as well.
It's very misleading to say democrats are trying to push for a ceasefire, when democrats are all on board for continuing supporting Israel and their genocide against Palestine. And why wouldn't they when Israel is pretty much a place that allows the United States to continue to have a foothold in West Asia? To add, Biden who is a democrat, has no problem with what Israel has been doing.
I feel like I have been using nonvebral wrong. I don't think selective mutism or verbal shutdown fits for me. Since in general, I have a ton of trouble speaking just in general and not on a temporary basis, that a lot of people really don't understand me a lot, despite trying my best to speak. In which is just gets very frustrating and isolating. And I normally just communicate other ways like gesturing stuff or having to write or text it. What should I say instead?
venting about my dad again, hopefully the last time for a while because I don't want to keep constantly talking about him cw: alcoholism, some trauma dumping
I really hate how my dad views me. He just views me as mentally ill in a dehumanizing manner, calling me just "one of the good mentally ills!". But like months ago I got upset about something, that made me just go into my room to go cry and go be alone. but later on in the night after I calmed down and everything, I heard him on the phone talking about me in that manner but in more negative saying things like "she just mentally ill." or "this is how places get shot". And... like what is that suppose to mean? excuse me for getting upset about something? am I not allowed to visible cry and shut down and retreat to my room? It's really frustrating hearing him talk on the phone about me as if I can't hear him, when he loud as fuck. also what really ironic is like, it's very convenient for him to see me as mentally ill when im upset. but when im no longer upset. he thinks that suddenly, things like my depression just have magically gone away! just because im not being visible about it.
I think im partially just upset at the moment since I had to go to the grocery store with him. and he had country music on the radio. and I really hate country music. mainly just because. it reminds me of when I was very young. where like. I remember being home at times, hearing my mom blasting county music while she was drinking because she was upset. same for my dad. with beer bottles all lined up in the house. and hearing country music today it just a reminder of that. and doesn't help that sometimes.. sometimes. my dad does what my mom does. blasting sad depressing country music while he is sad about something. I dunno I can't listen to country music at all. I just can't. I don't want to be around it. I don't want to hear it.
anyways like, I had to wake up on little sleep and it just hard. it's hard going to the store on that little sleep. and then there, my dad just asking me a million questions. like where is x? I don't know! where is y? I don't know! where is z? I don't know!! and I do try to help him find it. but like. he has his phone. he can look it up online. but he always refuses to.
I don't know. just hopefully I can refrain from venting about him for a while now.
the moon is really bright tonight
For me in part besides being reminded of nearby wildfires, it just that it gives me headaches and makes me feel sick as well.