If you haven't talked to them for ten years, then you do not have crush on them. You have a crush on an idealized person that existed a decade ago.
Anyway I get the feeling, it sucks and it's hard. Focus on the joy you and your wife bring each other.
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This. Sure, you had chemistry, but you didn't even have a romantic relationship then. Take care of your wife. Fall back in love with her. Speaking from experience, comrade.
Don't mistake this for love. This phenomenon is called limerence, and it can be very toxic in the long run.
This happened to me once. I met them two years later, and I realized that my attraction wasn't really about that person - indeed, I was bored on that date - but about feeling wanted, desired, and understood.
I wasn't needed. I wasn't someone to this person soley for the purpose to console them, to comfort them, to heal their damaged psyche from a traumatic childhood. We were there searching for a companion to be happy with. It felt like acceptance and understanding, a transcendent and tranquil state after emotional catharsis and reconciliation from past trauma and regret. Still, the moment had passed and that was the last I saw of them.
Appreciate you introducing me to the idea of "limerance"
I know it's not love, just a crush and one on some who doesn't even really exist. Wasn't familiar with the word but Limerence is pretty spot on except I know it was reciprocated way back then and fortunately these feeling mostly come in waves so it's not something I have to deal with all the time.
Researchers Willmot and Bentley note that there is a consistent correlation between limerence and those with anxiety, depression, and substance use.
Couldn't be me
I wasn't needed. I wasn't someone to this person solely for the purpose to console them, to comfort them, to heal their damaged psyche from a traumatic childhood.
Holy shit do I feel that. Hell that may even be a big part of it. My dumb ass always fell for the most broken people, she might have been the first/only person I was ever interested in who wasn't just a bundle of trauma and mental health problems.
I still think about past people that I loved and cared about. I don't fantasize about a future or what ifs but acknowledge the humanity and comfort I felt when dipping into nostalgia.
Ready to read a cheesy proverb? Be grateful that you had those moments and cherish them; it is you who wields those emotions and memories not the other way around.
You were once loved, are loved, and will be loved.