Melbourne

Might have to bail on work after 2 hours. Thank you DT for your kind comments. 💜💜💜

Having a moment where I'm suddenly aware that there's going to be a day where my cat passes, and it will be sooner rather than later as she's getting old, and there's nothing I can do to protect her.

She's been a constant companion for a very long time, and I'm not ready for that day.

How the fuck do youse deal with these kinds of feelings? First time in a long time that the waterworks kicked off and my anxiety is doing shit I really am not okay with

Whose bright idea was it to have Start-of-The-Month, Monday-After-Daylight-Savings, Monday-After-a-Long-Weekend and Monday-After-a-Short-Week all on one day!?

Part of daylights savings is getting used to the fact that the very hottest part of the day is quite often towards the end of the day.

Ugh threw up on the bus. Blehhhhh the other passengers hate meeeee. Pray for me.

It really stings that, having been pushed by Dad to apologise for my part in the family blow up (I have a short fuse and tend to lash out when overwhelmed/unable to communicate important things…I know this is not a good way to deal with my problems, but it’s a perennial challenge) I do not get an apology in return.

Nor, I think, will I ever, because I never do.

I don’t regret apologising for my part, but…man it would be nice to receive one as well as give one. It would be nice if “whoops, we didn’t realise we’d pushed your boundaries so hard” happened once

So the psychiatrist that my psychologist referred me to last week confirmed what we all suspected, that I have ADHD. What I didn't expect was that it's served with a side of Asperger's (now known as 'high functioning autism' apparently). Did not see that one coming but it actually explains a lot.

I should start on the meds (Vyvanse) later this week. No idea what to expect, but sure, I'll take legal speed if it's on offer!

Shout out to all the shops that blast their AC with the front door wide open.

Incredibly wasteful but they sure are nice to walk past for those 2 seconds.

Ah the sound of kids bouncing a ball on their way to school and my little dog going berserk because of that.

Pro hospital system tip: If you or your loved one is pushed to go into a "Transition Care Program" while recovering from surgery refuse.

It's so under resourced that I've just had to shell out what will probably be ~$2-2.5k on private patient transport because they have zero resources or budget to organise it on our behalf.

Ted Cat is dying, dying of hunger. He told me.

Home and dead. Hot and cold. Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhbleh

I need to vent a bit. Did my exercises just now to make myself feel better after coming home and copping criticism from both my kids and Mr P, all for different reasons. Made me feel really flat mood wise, but the exercises helped a bit. The Elder seems to think that the odd bits of swimming lessons he's allowed me to give him here and there over the past year or so are enough for him to say that he can swim, so it's ok for him to go to funfields with the school. He's always been scared of the water and hates those indoor pools with reeking chlorine, so he's always refused formal swimming lessons. Miniest is having trouble with her friends at school and can't find anyone else to play with, so she wants to leave the school at the end of the year 🤦🏻‍♀️ Mr Peeler wanted to grab some cash off me to go get a beer and I had to say no because I've only worked 2 days last week, so even though it's my pay day I have to keep everything tight financially for a bit. Everything is my fault somehow. Sooo tired after a hot day at work. I feel deflated and sort of defeated somehow. Might go have a cup of tea.

Had some nepalese curry to burn the sick away lol

Alrighty, picked up the car, don't have anything to hold the phone in place for navigation so it's AUDIO NAVIGATION time in a city with winding roads and sudden changes in dedicated turn lanes!

Over the weekend I finally tackled a garden I've wanted fixed since I moved in. It looks good so far, but too early to tell till the seedlings take off. Still, job done!

Did anyone else struggle to sleep last night? It felt very stuffy and warm. Maybe my place hadn't cooled down enough from the heat.

:)

Morning guys

Currently at friend's place feeding her cats for the last time because their mum is about to board her flight home from Brisbane. They're used to me now, one is my BFF and they're totally going to be sad when I don't come over tomorrow. Or they won't care. Cats be catting.

and that’s me on holidays wooot! next stop, Hunter Valley 😎

4C outside. No wonder it feels crisp!

Righty ho, we've passed 6 degrees outside, it's time to move some bricks before the heat hits.

Bad sleep and daylight savings body clock adjustment hit me like a bus today. I’m already ready for bed.