Kolibri
I'd like to think if it wasn't for his drinking he'd probably be pretty decent. Since at least when he is sober, he is very different. He just really needs to stop drinking. Just like I dunno, maybe im too defensive of him at times. But I prefer him over my mom when she was alive, and her side of my family since they're far worse and very reactionary. Especially with one of my half siblings threatening my dad a second time now. But then again, my mom wasn't always bad. When my dad kicked me out two years ago after confronting him, she gave me a place to stay for a bit. Yet at the same time, she also said very transphobic towards me, yet at the same time there was a time she was accepting. Yet that also ignoring a few others things
I dunno it just complicated with my dad, even more so since my dad like generally pretty much the only person I talk to in person.
A good way, I haven't heard anything antisemitic from him. But he really dislikes how Israel committing genocide and how the United States is helping with that.
I was talking to my dad, and he said how Israel shouldn't exist 
yea, he was paid by the mi5 weekly
I think I just saw my first shooting star 
kind of amazing how fast it is, very easy to miss
it's kind of nice to sit in the shower instead of stand
signalis, would've of been guild wars 2 if I wasn't waiting for the new expansion. space gdr!
yea. and there just like that sense of power they hold over someone. Besides that, that sort of reminded me, like when I was involuntary detained in the psych ward. There had to be a court case whether to be involuntary detained longer or to be let go. And there was a state or court psychiatrist that visited me, I think he was? kind of forgot exactly who he was, but when it came to court time. He pretty much lied, trying to keep me longer.
I never really had, and I still have like a lot of mistrust towards towards the mental health system, due to like something that happened a long time ago. Where like a psychiatrist mistakenly thought I was in crises and sic the police on me. I also didn't have health insurance, so getting the ambulance bill + hospital bill + various other bills from different health professionals like a physician. I dunno it just taught me that to not seek help when in a crisis
I think I just need to like, need to find an outlet or something. Since like, right now I'm okay with being around him again. It just like things build up. At least when my mom was alive, I could go to her place to just get away for a bit. I don't mind keeping the door open for him, he is really decent when he is sober