I tried quitting so many times the last few years I smoked. Don't feel too discouraged, all of us who successfully quit (I'm somewhere between 8 and 9 years now, after a decade of pack-a-day plus) fucked it up and relapsed a few times. It's not a personal moral failing, it's just the nature of addiction. If you keep at it, you'll kick the habit for sure.

Good luck to you conrad. Its a bitch, but entirely doable. I quit 4 years ago this month off a pack and a half a day of cowboy killlers and lucky strike no filters.

One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time.

Don't try, just quit. You can't hesitate. It's awful, I know. The first month was the hardest, the second month was even harder. But it does get easier eventually. You really can't listen to the Nicotine Imp sitting on your shoulder though: all it tells are lies, lies, lies. "Just one more and that's it" is a delusion. Always keep in mind why you are quitting and focus on that.

You can do it, you have the willpower. You are stronger than tobacco.

Not to flippantly quote bojack at you, but in my experience: Every day (without a cigarette) it gets a little easier… But you gotta do it (not smoke) every day — that’s the hard part. But it does get easier.

I can link a torrent audiobook for that Allen Carr - easy way to stop smoking book if you like. The method is pretty unique in that it targets the false ideological supports of addiction(targeting the lies we tell ourselves about addiction), rather than trying to use willpower. They use that method for all kinds of different addictions too, because it works really well.

Quitting gets easier every time, you’ve climbed the hill once and know the way better this time. You’ve got this!

Have you tried vaping?

It happens to the best of us. If it helps I'm in exactly the same situation as you but the goal is to do better each time and you will win xoxo

Good news is, if you’ve already quit for a month, you’ve proven you can beat the worst of the cravings. Those tend to come around 3 weeks. That period will be really intense, but it is all downhill from there. Make a plan, know how you’ll distract yourself to change your thinking and focus when cravings do hit. Also try to come up with a brief meditation to get you back to a neutral frame of mind. With these tools available, I know you can make it through the worst this time. Then you can be like me, and 4 years later still get the occasional urge but finally be able to realize, laugh about it, and move on. You got this!

I'm back on nicotine, too.

I quit smoking a year or two ago by switching to vaping and gradually reduced the nicotine dose to zero. I fell off the alcohol wagon for a few days and bought one of those disposable vapes. I haven't drank since, but I've been wasting a small fortune on those vapes.

I keep telling myself I'm going to quit again, but I've got a lot going on right now. I'm looking for work for the first time in 12 years and recently quit smoking weed. I'm afraid of changing too many things at once and having a major relapse and ending up on harder drugs again. Or at least that's what I'm telling myself.

Wishing you luck comrade!