i'm not gonna say that this is why i'm getting a doctorate, but it certainly is a fun bonus
my full name is actually "comrade professor doctor Lerios PhD" and i SHALL be referred to as such 
(eventually lmao)
Lerios
joined 4 years ago
> willing to ruin someone's life over nothing
> not willing to say the word "assassination"
yeah, suddenly having some bullshit work from home job just fills me with rage about whats happening to everyone else from my background and how senseless it is. i get paid more for doing way less work than my aunt does being a cleaner. i talk like i know how to code and had my regional accent beaten out of me, so i get treated better than my cousins on welfare. i watched my mother get sexually harassed working a cash register for 18 years, and somehow i get to dick around on hexbear for better living conditions?
seeing the middle class world is fucking appalling, because it makes it glaringly obvious how unfair and bullshit this system is
NIGHT SHOWER MY BELOVED THERE IS NO OTHER OPTION (unless you're planning to work out immediately in the morning ig, in which case whats the point)
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but then obvously you don't wake up in time to work out before work 
i'm chilling on tumblr and hear about the shooting. its 50% people being sad that the shooter missed and 50% being like "nooooo this is such a propaganda W for him, he's gonna win now :("
so obviously i have to immediately get out of bed and sprint to hexbear, where i know you nerds will have the correct take on this shooting - its fucking hilarious 
literally a few weeks ago at a work event we all drove off site to get macdonalds. they each spent over €10. for fucking macdonalds. i literally walked across the street to the corner store to get a drink for €1 and then waited until after work to go spend the same money at an actual nice indie joint for more and better food.
the same with taco bell and all the rest. you can get more for cheaper a bunch of other places, and the big brands are coasting off of their names (and driving those brands into the ground to squeeze out profits, as a capitalist will do).
incidentally, thanks american brands, for coming to my country and strangling everything else we ever had!!!
i spent highschool trying desperately to be attracted to men
so dear god yes 
like legit what does she get out of this? it seems like an awful trade deal. she gives up a perfectly pleasant night to herself doing shit she cares about and in exchange she gets to spend $80 on drinks/transport/etc for no reason.
or my long distance friend: he loses a nice night relaxxing and playing video games, and replaces it with video games but Worse because you're constantly worrying about Conversing Correctly and you can't quite breathe or relax for 5 hours.
i feel like i'm a fucking alien for not getting this lmao
i got invited to a night out :/
i haven't seen this friend in like 6 months and she's reached out (which i literally never do) and i feel like i Have To Go, in the same way that i Have To talk to my closest friend on discord about once a month despite the fact that i never want to. i feel like theres something fucking busted in my instincts as a member of a social species. But my grandma made me promise when i left home that i would try to have friends, so for the last 5 years i've been putting in some (usually minimal) effort but god i always fucking dread it, like this invitation has ruined my day. but we do what we have to.
i just wish i understood why the prospect of occasionally interacting with one of the few people i know makes me feel nauseous despite the fact that we are literally an animal specifically evolved to be friends with eachother wtf
AND its going to cost like a day's wages fml
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i'm like, damn why have i never had a relationship 
(hint: the idea of going out makes me want to die lmao)
> early morning
> looks inside
> midway through the workday
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no i don't know what a timezone is and i hate fun, why do you ask
"china wants to take over the west philippine sea - i mean, obviously china wants to take over the world, but right now its the west philippine sea"
^^ a sentence said with absolutely no irony at work and met with general murmurs of "well obviously". why the fuck are Anglos so braindead about the rest of the world jesus christ
FUCK YEAH BROTHER!
That's the thing i fucking adore about cross dressing, like, yeah its more practical and everything, but wearing "men's" clothes just lets me exist as a person first and foremost rather than as an aesthetic performance as women are expected to be. By completely refusing to ever wear makeup or "women's" clothes or shave i have basically been able to opt out of the race; no one expects me to compete as "a woman" anymore and they seem to measure me on the same scales that they measure my male friends and colleagues, rather than how they judge other women because i just offer 0 data points on that scale. It's phenomenal.
its like how people say "ur gay lol" and you just go "yes.png" and it takes all the wind out of their sales. Like, you say that I'm ugly and not being a woman correctly? Yeah exactly lmao, deal with it. It's so freeing.
But yeah, there's nothing wrong with crossdressing comrade, I wish you the best of luck with it. I've been crossdressing everyday of my life since I was 14, and I'm cis too - it's just nicer to me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I know that I will never have to dress as a "woman" ever again in my life and its the best possible feeling.
EDIT: But yeah no, to answer your question, is fucking awful for women who do play the game properly. The vast majority of my friends are fucking miserable about their bodies and a few can't even leave the house without makeup. the pressure for women to be physically appealing is constant and horrendous.