I saw a play called Fucking Trans Women. She was inspired by the zine. Very tender and heartfelt. Also educational. I was a lil disappointed she didn't talk about post orchie sex life cause half the trans women I know have had orchies (also solves the concern about impregnating someone she brought up in the show).
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If you get it, get the tiktok ass tights. They work, it will give you a larger femmer ass than you thought you had
I'm like a beautiful mustang, wild and free - ain't no one will tell me what to do
Ugh that's awful, I get it from a medical pov.
Doubly awful cause I bet spiro would also LOWER her BP and it's a super common diuretic cis people use all the time... and they give it to people with acute high BP and even chronic hypertension...
Anyway, there's plenty of meds that work to lower BP and some nutritional stuff she can do (low sodium potentially). Hope it works out.
I don't have much to say despite how often I fucking whinge about it lol, my dms are open for the same
It's really bad she's quit before but is one of those people who literally can't stop, like an actual addiction. Probably doesn't help that her job is youtuber so she kind of has to
"And they were just very good friends"
wtf they were gay as fuck???
@tomboymoder homework complete
talking bout my ex again
I'm back in the city I left my ex in, just visiting other friends. It's been weirdly hard, it's been over a year but every once in a while I go back to a place or drive by somewhere we used to go or I used to hang out. I had a dream last night that we met up and hit it off for a few hours - the passing train interrupted me lol - it was nice in the dream but awake I dunno if I'd really want that. I guess it was nice to remember that feeling of very deep connection, like you've become one person and share a mind, that you had someone you could always count on and who always had your back (wasn't true for me but it felt like it). I'm not even sure if they're still here or nor but I feel haunted.
When I think back on what it was really like, it wasn't nice or wholesome which is why I broke it off after months of hemming and hawing and them being unwilling to change anything even when they knew our relationship was at stake. I read someone's own journey a few months ago with a very similar story to mine and it was like being slapped in the face again - the dirty cat litter, the clothes everywhere, the mess, them not working, not looking, not trying to get onto disability, not doing anything for years. I remember the fights over "you need to get some income, I can't support us, I have loans and a scholarship" and how POOR we were because of it. Or when I was in charge of doctor appointments and psych appointments the fights to going to them... it wasn't like having a partner, it was like having a really obstinate kid. Or when we moved cause the house got shot, I was the person looking and the only house they agreed to was the most expensive fucking one!!! It was really hard.
But there's so much tenderness wrapped in that, the further I get from the pain and how hard it was the more those shine through. I remember how badly I treated them when they tried to show affection, ignoring being talked to or being held, I was going through so much shit that I was just not emotionally present and hadn't been for years. So I also get this fun house mirror style view where I was the asshole all the time in my memories on background as I forget what made it so hard and why I broke it off.
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Sounds like you're in a much better place mental health wise now, I'm so much happier for you!
I had a pretty brief 2 years with not-debilitating but still life altering OCD, it's definitely always been there when I look back (my fundamentalist dad told me once the worst sin you can commit is "cursing the holy spirit" so little terminal thought about that for like 6 years until one day I cursed the holy spirit by literally stating it lmao). It's hard to convey what it's like to someone who hasn't had it or been near someone who has experienced it. Even people who have had loved ones go into pretty deep contamination OCD sometimes don't know even though they're doing all the exhausting compulsions and rituals their partner is doing, which is weird, it's a disease that's definitely not well understood.
My worst was always around checking and it felt like I was a crazy person. I was driving back to visit my mom, 5 hour drive, and I turned around and drove back home to my place to check the windows and stoves and doors - like this would add hours onto my drive. I would lose so much sleep checking the door and the stove over and over through the night. I say it's about checking but it doesn't really communicate what it was like unless you were around me, it was A LOT of checking, or unless you have had OCD. Eventually I started doing it at clinical, you're supposed to check you have the right med but I'd check again and again and again, and then I started getting help.
I do remember when the doctor said "you have OCD" and now I was also neurodivergent (I was cause of the anxiety before lol but I just didn't consider it). Which was a weird feeling. Anyway, I'm sure people would appreciate an OCD info post. I know for example at the height of my OCD I didn't even know why I was doing what I was doing, and I had had to study common mental health disorders, like it came up and I wrote tests on it - my point being you might even be able to help someone realize that they might have OCD and there are ways to move past obsessive thoughts and compulsions that don't hurt.
Tiktok butt tights? Something like that