[-] [email protected] 5 points 1 hour ago

I completely understand where you are coming from and you are not crazy. For me I have complex PTSD because of my traumatic childhood. That means my default model for dealing with trauma is dissociation. So I see parts of myself as different aspects of who I am. One part of myself is the one that has my given name or what people call a deadname. He is one of our protectors and in IFS speak he is a firefighter. That is why I dislike the idea of thinking of him as dead. I know this sounds a little different from what you are experiencing but I figured it was close enough that I would tell you about it. Hopefully you take some comfort in it.

[-] [email protected] 25 points 2 days ago

We all know who's turn it is!

[-] [email protected] 8 points 2 days ago

You could be right. His ear did look really bad.

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Get in here folks. Its time for new Peter Pringle singing about the best bromance in history.

[-] [email protected] 4 points 4 days ago

I love Eureka Seven so much! A simple sweet love story that hits me in the feels a little too hard. Not to go off topic, but have you ever seen Xam'd? A lot of people compare it to Eureka Seven for some odd reason. Not many people saw it when it came out because it was released exclusively on the Ps3 streaming service that Sony tried to push a long time ago.

[-] [email protected] 1 points 6 days ago

I had no idea there was even an office that I needed to report to. None of my paperwork so far says I have to do that.

[-] [email protected] 2 points 6 days ago

This is exactly what I was afraid of. I cannot do the job I use to do because it burned me out that badly. So I wanted to change to a different type of work. I use to do system administration but want to do data entry. Do I need to explain this to someone?

[-] [email protected] 3 points 1 week ago

Gotcha, thanks for replying to my thread. It might not seem like much but it means a lot to me.

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I am worried about messing up on the only form that gets my rent and medical insurance bills paid. I just feel like there is a Sword of Damocles above my head waiting to drop when I don't dot an i or cross a t to their liking. I am also not the smartest person in the world when it comes to this stuff and the reassurance helps me a lot.

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I am on unemployment for the first time and they say I need to be filling out a form every 2 weeks saying I was looking for work. My question is how serious are these forms when I fill them out? Do they track down every place I tried to fill out an application for? I am super confused on how all this works and hoping a fellow hexbear can help my neurodivergent ass out.

[-] [email protected] 4 points 1 week ago

I managed to go to this game overcoming some crippling social anxiety mixed with autism spectrum issues. It was my first MLB game and honestly it was super fun! If I did not have to load myself to the gills with Ativan I would go more often.

[-] [email protected] 4 points 1 week ago

So I have shared this with a few friends and we all agree this so dumb that its wrapped around to being genius.

[-] [email protected] 7 points 2 weeks ago

Does a "the 4 genders" joke actually work with this? I think so.

[-] [email protected] 36 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago)

I totally forgot about Teh Klob.

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They laid off almost everyone at my old job on a few Monday's back. I was already trying to get off pot and booze because they were frankly killing me. I had started Wellbutrin but it was still the 2 week period where that stuff kicks in. When I got told that I was going to be let go I had a really bad mental breakdown. I have PTSD from having an utter shit childhood and really bad episodic MDD. I could not focus and was crying in public which has not happened in a while. I also might have been hearing voices but they are not there anymore. I ended up in a partial hospitalization program under recommendation of my therapist and while it sounded scary it has turned my life around in only 3 days of going.

Next step is they are going to be putting me on Abilify to even out the spikes I have been having. While the Wellbutrin is handling some of my ADHD I want to see if I can change it to 300mg to see if it squashes it along with my MDD episodes that its handling now. The psychologist says I should not be scared of the Abilify even tho I kind of am. She says it will even out the spikes and dips I have been having. Those are what are causing me to cry. I read on the internet too it should be helpful with my autism spectrum issues.

I have been white knuckling it alone for so long that seeing some light on the horizon makes me want to cry with joy. I just hope some of the bridges I have burned can be built back up again because I have left a trail of fire behind me. I am really hoping to figure out this whole vegan thing that I have been so hardcore in hating now that I am not consumed by thoughts of death.

Lastly, I dont know if any of you have had some experiences with Abilifiy if you do I would like to hear about them bad or good. Thank you for reading this my friends, and if you think there is no hope out there remember that other humans have beat what you have and you dont have to go at it alone.

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  • Stolen by squirrel
  • Get broken
  • Waste the seeds
  • Waste your time
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Alternative title is Steve Job's is an asshole for killing Flash.

I am 5 beers deep right now so let me get on with this hottake. It was wrong to kill Flash because literally nothing has replaced it. It's murderer was Steve jobs in the end because it worked like shit on the iPhone. Even when they worked with Adobe on the port they could not get it to work. Check out the link it talks about it in there.

One of the lines that caught my eye in there was "by almost any definition, Flash is a closed system". The man who created the most closed system on the planet has the gall to say this line, and people still believe it to this day. The reason why Flash was so invasive was because the language that drove it was a simplified version of JavaScript. It was made so easy that it took a bit of hardware to run. They later used it for UI graphics in video games because it could present things so easily. What we got to replace it was JavaScript + HTML5. From a sysadmins perspective JavaScript is full of nothing but pitfalls for new players to the point it seems like its written that way.

I want you to think back to all the jank flash games you played like Happy Wheels. Yea we kind of get those games in Unity but not at the replability as older flash games. Do you remember playing Elona Shooter before even finding out what the Elona series was about? Did Nanaca✝Crash make you wish for all those hours of your life back? Do I age myself by talking about these things? I think part of what makes the internet so good is how accessible it is to do things with it. Killing a language that only lets more people do shit is a sin.

Thanks for reading. I am probably gonna tap out after this because its late so I will check my inbox for replies. If you want anything out of me you have to find out on the next episode of CoolYori Z!

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What is art? (hexbear.net)
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For me its a Mitsubishi DA-A7DC Stereo Power Amplifier.

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If small mom and pop websites ran by starving artists cannot shame me into turning it off to see their factor75 banner what makes you think I will do it for you?

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I knew it was a good idea to hold off telling my parents I am never coming back to that shithole of a state ever again. Now I can just point at this and say I dont like spending time being locked up for needing to take a piss.

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I just found this salsa at my local grocery store and its so flavorful. I enjoy how thick it is as well as the fact its not vinegar based. I have a big bottle of the green one too but this is the first one I have cracked open. I am super excited to see what it all goes with since it feels so versatile.

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