Being trans is about the joy you find in being yourself; you don't have to dislike being your agab to be trans. If you want to explore this, you could try some small things where it's safe to. You could try on some fem clothes that one of your characters would wear; for a lot of trans folks video games are an avenue for gender expression before they realize that they are trans. Online, you could try out different pronouns, maybe a different name or two. @[email protected] already linked the Gender Dysphoria Bible- I read it when I was first beginning to accept that I really am trans and thinking about doing something about it (even if you do recognize that you are trans, you don't have to change anything). I had so many "Oh, fuck" moments reading it.
Do what makes you happy. We'll support you in this whether you are trans or not
And even in the UK it took years and years of garbage policy by the Tories, fucking Brexit, for the Blairites to seize power again.