Creamsicle is really worried about me.

[Faint, off in the distance] “I DREW A PICTURE OF A WHALE!”

I’m sorry I keep asking all frantic and shit like this, I’m sorry I do it on an almost daily basis. I feel like that’s all I do—beg for money and doom scroll. I used to have a personality not long ago.

Tbh I wish assisted you-know were an option for this kinda thing. I have zero quality of life anymore and no hope for it to get better.

CashApp and Venmo are allthetimesivedied.

And it’s not for drugs, nor am I spending it on stupid shit.

It's weird having to ask random strangers on the internet for help. I just started my 20's pretty recently and don't have any sort of support network irl. Idk ig I'm just really scared rn. the world will crush me up & spit me out and there's nothing I can do about it. It feels hopeless. I don't know what else to do rn while I apply to jobs. how can I be expected to "just go get a job" when that costs money? Merely existing costs money!? It's like the longer I'm in a bad spot, the further in the hole I roll down :(

sorry to briefly rant. I ended up losing my cashiering job at a big corporate store a week or so ago. It was for reasons outside of my own control. My funds dried up so quick. I don't know how I'm gonna pay my rent and not get evicted this month. everyone is acting like it's my fault bc I was supposed to have savings somehow? I made less money every check it felt like, what was I supposed to save?? Anyway. Maybe it's me, and I'm just a dipshit who can't be an adult like everyone else. Regardless. I haven't ate anything other than a bag of microwave popcorn I found in the cabinets of my apartment 3 days ago, and before that I wasn't exactly eating like a king. I feel like if I don't do something soon I'm gonna be in such a worse spot. i would really appreciate if anyone would be able to spot me a few dollars to eat today. it would relieve a world of stress off my shoulders to just have one big meal rn. my cashapp is $jwmgregory, same as my user here. thank you sm to anyone who even reads this. ik that this is very rambly but i'm not of the clearest head rn, sorry for any mistakes and ty for your time.

Hi, I just wanted to let everyone know that I am so very thankful and appreciate all of the help I've received. I was just wondering if anyone else could possibly help me out with a little bit of food money so that I can get some dinner tonight. My cash app cashtag is $KodyMartinGerba. Thank you.

Hello, I'm new to hexbear, was directed here by a friend bc of my situation.

Let me give you the long and short of it. End of January, fired from my job after inquiring about wage theft (missed a paycheck). Texas Labor Board told me to kick rocks because I was a 1099 (so no unemployment either). My Driver's License expired around the time I lost my job, I renewed by mail, but it was never sent, or sent to the wrong address. Either way, I have to renew in person. Waited from January to JULY, only to be turned away do to having the wrong kind of bank statement to prove my personhood. Have had multiple job offers, all said the same "We can't hire you without a valid ID".

I've survived off of donations from friends, gig work (I do free lance web and graphic design) and selling my things. I have a gofundme going right now (please DM if you'd like to donate, I don't want to link my real name to an anarchist website).

I'm $500 short on rent and will be evicted (and thus homeless with no valid ID). My landlord is "just some guy" so thankfully he's been very patient which is good, but he's made it clear he will file for eviction very soon. I'm kinda at the end of my rope here, I don't know what else do right now.

Any help is so deeply and unfathomably appreciated. Money will be going basically directly to my landlord, but also to get some essentials like dog food, hygiene products, etc. The only way I have to recieve donations is the gofundme (Please DM for this) and cashapp.

https://cash.app/$slimcongnito

The judge started laughing so hard she collapsed and had to be rushed to the hospital when Creamsicle replied to “How does the defendant plead?” by yelling “I don’t know!”

He thinks he’s getting “the fighter squad” for killing a judge, so I got him a pizza from 7-Eleven. He immediately goes back to freaking the fuck out the instant it leaves his field of vision. He literally will shift gears mid sentence. I know he understands object permanence but ???.

I’m the fucking ghost of who I was just two years ago. I’m in pain every day—my knees are fucked up, among other things. It really does feel like I’m fucking dying and I’m not just freaking out.

Can anyone help me? Please?

CashApp/Venmo are allthetimesivedied

Here’s Creamsicle drinking water! He was very brave.

Most likely “drinkies” means a thing of instant kool aid. I fucking love that shit.

CashApp/Venmo—same as my username.

Will update when funded.

Yeah, what the title says. I absolutely never lie about how I spend the money I receive on here. I can get one for less than $5, but would really prefer to get a $5 packs. You guys have seen me post often enough, I always try to make it clear how important something is or isn't. I'm going to level with you all, my life is going absolutely terribly right now. I am currently drunk writing this because I relapsed this week. I haven't taken my psych meds in days, I've just been drinking through the withdrawals. I already got my stepkids covered, they have food and all their needs covered, y'all know I do my best for those fuckers. No starving kids this time. If someone has a starving kid, please ignore me.

I used to have a habit to smoke a ciggy every time I took one of my psych meds. Not a healthy habit, but it got me to take my psych meds. I've finally middle grounded myself to "I'll get back on meds if I can get a cigarette." and no way to get cigs. I normally wouldn't be so dramatic about some smokes, but I know if I don't get back on my shit I'm going to end up dying by my own hand. I can't keep going without meds. I need to make this negotiation with myself.

DM me for any payment info, and if you guys just wanna try to convince me to actually take the meds that'd probably be about as good as money. I feel so bad asking for something so stupid, but I need to start taking my meds again. This is going to ruin my life again if I can't stop it.

Creamsicle got some mechanical pencils!

Anyways…

There’s two big-ticket items that need replaced, though they’re not urgently needed given the weather (which is breaking 100° F today and tomorrow): my leather jacket & sleeping bag.

I’d love to be able to order a bivy sack as well, in preparation for the literal monsoon season we have up here.

Mostly Creamsicle and I just need to buy dinner, and cold drinkies.

CashApp/Venmo are the same as my @. DM me if you want to send via PayPal, since it’s my friend’s and has their legal name on it.

Also fwiw I’ve been (mostly) sober the last four days.

God I just really need a break right now, things haven't been going my way lately, to say the least.

My venmo and cashapp are both under cosecantphi, DM for paypal info

Thanks, c/mutual aid.

EDIT: Thanks!

Update: someone here covered me, thank you so much. It really means a lot (and hopefully I can get a new job soon and get a little more stability)

Hate to ask here again but I managed to fuck up again this month and overdraft myself, with the main issue that I need to get some gas so I can get to work. Honestly really stupid because I told myself a few months ago when this last happened that I would keep some kind of backup money in cash or something and I didn't/forgot (I really need new work too).

Anyways, 10-20$ would probably be enough to get me through if anyone can spare that. If not I'm going to have to pawn something.

PayPal: [email protected] (I can just use PayPal balance at a station)

Also want to reiterate to whomever it was who helped me last time: you literally saved my skin, thank you

Getting my meds refilled, most of them are covered by Medicaid but go figure the ones that actually help me feel like life is worth continuing with have costs not entirely covered. It's mostly the ADHD meds, finally found something that works for me so of course it's being held hostage by greedy fucks. If I can raise about $85 in total, I can get another month of being able to focus without breaking down too much, so any help is greatly appreciated. Apparently posting my details is a no-go now, so if you're able to contribute to this, let me know via private message. Thanks to everyone, from the readers to the bumpers to the donaters.

Edit: $40 out of $85 raised, will check/bump in the morning with cat pics.

I really thought I had a job lined up. I was supposed to show up to sign papers and make things official last week and simply never heard back. I tried calling the stupid place and can't get anyone on the phone who knows what the hell I'm talking about, so it looks like I'm in limbo again.

Getting ghosted in your personal life is sad, but getting ghosted by supposed professionals while looking for work is both infuriating and sad.

Looking for about $30 today, but any amount is very helpful. My venmo and cashapp are both under the handle cosecantphi. DM me for paypal info.

I appreciate you, donors and bumpers of c/mutual_aid. The one place on the internet that cares about people who are struggling.

EDIT: Reached my goal for today, thanks so much to the two donors who helped out!

Even my leather jacket. I don’t have razors. I can’t wash my face. I can’t listen to fucking music. I’m sober right now but why fucking bother being sober when you don’t even have fucking socks? One person sent me $5 yesterday. One person.

CashApp/Venmo are the same as my username.

Please help. I’m out of food stamps too.

So once again there's more issues with my donation... They had to take a sample to test the protein levels, thought no biggie cool cool, asked the front desk how long that should take, was told 7 mins, turns out after they drew the sample, that it was actually 7 days because they need to send out the sample... Partner is able to donate tho so that's good but we were really counting on both of us being able to donate. Again if any of y'all can spare anything it's, like always, very very VERY appreciated.

https://hexbear.net/post/2907805 og post

https://cash.app/$HexBeara

Apologies for being jokey but it's better than anything else right now.

(Btw as an aside just in case any queer folks are considering donating plasma, you do have to pretend you are cishet which is unfortunate but usually some of the workers couldn't give a shit. I have let it slip that I wasn't a straighty once and nothing had came of it but ymmv so if you need that extra cash you got to be able to hide in plain sight and be careful to not let something spicy slip out.)

All my things, except my backpack, which was bike-locked to the fence. Everything. My sleeping bag. My leather jacket. My hygeine/shaving stuff. Everything.

Please.

CashApp and Venmo are allthetimesivedied.

Why is this happening to me.

hey so, i'm a transfemme, i have trouble getting work on a good day. It's july, and I need any financial help that can be spared. I've been out of work a while. I get interviews, at a rate of about 2 a month, with daily applications over several apps and honest to got footwork and old school physical applications.

It has never been this hard to get a job, my physical body hasn't changed, my demeanor is what it always has been, but these interviews go nowhere. There is never followup. I am never selected to move forward.

It's extremely demoralizing, and I've more or less exhausted the good will (and economic ability) of my family and friends after needing help for this long. I'm embarassed. Capitalism expects us to work, and I'm even willing, but the work isn't coming and I guess to most people it starts to seem like a personal issue. Maybe it is? But I'm genuinely trying everything I can, and I'm still on the fucking precipice.

phone is $80, i need at least $50 on electric, but the entire bill is $300 rn. I can go without cable, but that's another $100 to keep on

If you can help, it would mean a lot. I can't reasonably expect anything, but I have to try.

venmo is @ktkatte, pm me for any other apps

Thanks for anything. Love you all.

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/2907805

(Took about 2hrs to write and honestly could add more but I won't blame y'all for not reading it all)

Currently funemployed because I had quit a shitass job that didn't pay well enough to warrant the toxic work environment and busy workload. Been donating plasma to buy groceries (and MJ to keep myself sane and not be half-cocked as per my partners judgement), haven't worried about rent for about 5 months because my landlord had let the living space spiral into disarray from neglect and currently not worried about a phone plan because I use wifi. But. Yesterday afternoon I was pulled off to the side and told my proteins were too low and I'm at risk of being deferred from that center if it comes back low again, and it's unable to be clocked properly by their initial testing, it's how I was able to donate but later the donation was no good and or it's a health risk.

So went into the fridge and borrowed the LL's beyond beef without asking and cooked some beans. But I'm not sure it'll be enough and tbh I think donating has been a contributing factor in thinning my hair ( and it's been fucking with my self esteem and image heavily especially since I've been undecided with whether or not I want to start hrt at 30 and well... I'd rather be a bald dude if I'm gonna lose my hair, so it's very disheartening and just sux...) . There's that, I've had several teeth break and have dealt with that for about 4 years now with and without pain.

Partner is also funemployed but recently found something he just hasn't started yet and the rate will be a little low because it's training first and all that. I myself have looked but I have been pretty pessimistic about work culture , pay, etc. Been kinda hoping I just don't wake up vs having to be abused as a worker. Gaslit, guilt tripped, and squeezed dry. Done. But I know I need to find something, I just don't have a degree or a trade, and my experience is in customer service and hospitality so everything is gonna suck, holy shit balls.

I only smoke weed if substance is a concern, poppers (amyl nitrate) as well, but that's been awhile and tbh if I had my way I'd be sober, but sober me is an ass without the therapy I desperately need.

I've just been letting myself go to waste I guess. Not working, not working out ( hard to do with a barebones shit diet, partly due to my partners aversion to beanis and taste for b.s. ez to make processed foods, I've also been just letting them make decisions on food because I don't have many preferences, but I should fix that. Hard to do with someone who thinks they know everything and honestly we've had plenty of arguments about it...), letting my room get pretty bad with clothes strewn everywhere, dishes not getting done or done very slowly, at least showering semi regularly though like once every two or three days at the worst. I think if me and my current s.o. were in a different spot it'd better, but technically he shouldn't be here and the LL has made it clear they don't want them here, so he's been hiding when LL/Roommate is home, and he doesn't have a place to go since his parents house has been taken over by his siblings that have ignored him and his parents wishes in order to do as they please, and he called his older brothers probation officer because of his abuse of fent and by extention neglecting his 4 children. So kinda a narc but at the same time reasonable since he's been more of a dad than the actual dad.

The LL has also given me a silly written notice asking for the back pay which he settled on 1,510 that he wants by july 10th(I've been putting off making a post like this for awhile)(rent is $400, good on paper, but my room has a tin roof that turns it into an oven from 10-6) with ways to lessen the amount and potentially be paid but I'm still checked out of the situation and couldn't care less. Add to that, the floor that was water damaged was replaced, BUT the moldy subfloor was not. There's dry rot and mold under the kitchen sink, front porch light still doesn't work since hurricane Ian(2022), the lights don't flicker as bad in the kitchen anymore but the breaker trips every once in awhile while using the microwave, the bathroom still has a weird gap after the tub was replaced and the floor is still bare poured concrete where the toilet is at from when they fixed the outside plumbing and laundry room outlet for the washer.

Way back in 2018 I totaled my car with no insurance and as of right now have no valid drivers license and feel as though if I had that reinstated and a reliable car I wouldn't be in this mess.

If there are any class traitors willing to risk a modicum of their income to help me get out of this big ass hole I've fallen into, I think about 6 or 7k would barely cover every little thing that has gone wrong the past 6 years 10k to be absolutely safe and to be able to make strides after what seems like an eternity in purgatory.

Now for the comrades who aren't as financially able but still want to help, anything helps. It really does considering I lost out on $45 yesterday and by extention I won't hit the $100 for donating twice in a week.

After what's happened with a user here ( imo it's not their fault at the end of the day, but can't say one way or the other since I can't know the whole situation) idk what kind of rules or systems are in place now vs when I last posted on an account I no longer have access to, when I needed a new bike, groceries and a cheap phone. But I'll put my Cash app at the bottom and if there's anything y'all can spare, again it's greatly appreciated.

(NGL Reaaaallly hoping someone too generous for this world and their income bracket makes my day because on top of all this my mom and her bf(situationship partner? Idk...) have been homeless and she's developed melanoma and has been having identity theft issues along with just not having money and getting screwed over by clients with any painting jobs they line up. And it'd make me feel waaay less of a shit azz child despite the tenuous relationship she's fostered because of the shit azz relationship she's had with her mother and family...sigh and so on. Shit sucks yo, kinda why I don't want kids despite wanting kids of my own since I was little so I could be the one to get it 'right'...)

If anyone has any leads, job opportunities, resources, anything for (doxxing myself a lil) Pinellas county fl, more specifically St Petersburg that'd also be appreciated. Been using indeed and getting the same jobs over and over and no interviews or calls. Have thought about working on a cruise ship but reading job reviews and then seeing news articles about being left in port is giving me 3rd thoughts about it despite how much I could potentially squirrel away.

https://cash.app/$HexBeara

Listing my partners cashapp in case there's any issues sending it to HexBeara: $scherermatthewd97

Gotten $10 so far, from Seeking_Perhaps, which will help get both of us to the plasma center today to donate and get some groceries, but currently starving and needing more to be on the safe side and potentially pay back rent if need be if we're able to reach that amount (although not an obligation since technically with the moldy subfloors i could continue to withhold rent, but trying to be amicable and live in a cheap ass place still and not have him move forward with an eviction) Also don't know how to cross post properly using only the hyperlink I've seen in some posts. problems I guess

But Creamsicle is safe and that’s cool.

”Yay!”

I spent 17 fucking dollars on a really good Belkin cable. That’s gone. All my good wall boxes were taken by that piece of shit old man who threw away my things—my very last one was taken the other day along with the cord.

I also lost a pair of headphones, a laptop, three portable chargers, a JBL speaker, and a bunch of fucking tools, and a torch lighter that looks like a gun, and a cool knife, but I need the charger and box.

I’m tired of this shit.

CashApp and Venmo are the same as my username. DM me for my friend’s PayPal handle.

Thanks.

Please. If anyone is able to send me just a few bucks for food I would very much so appreciate it. Thank you. My cash app is $KodyMartinGerba.

(Took about 2hrs to write and honestly could add more but I won't blame y'all for not reading it all)

Currently funemployed because I had quit a shitass job that didn't pay well enough to warrant the toxic work environment and busy workload. Been donating plasma to buy groceries (and MJ to keep myself sane and not be half-cocked as per my partners judgement), haven't worried about rent for about 5 months because my landlord had let the living space spiral into disarray from neglect and currently not worried about a phone plan because I use wifi. But. Yesterday afternoon I was pulled off to the side and told my proteins were too low and I'm at risk of being deferred from that center if it comes back low again, and it's unable to be clocked properly by their initial testing, it's how I was able to donate but later the donation was no good and or it's a health risk.

So went into the fridge and borrowed the LL's beyond beef without asking and cooked some beans. But I'm not sure it'll be enough and tbh I think donating has been a contributing factor in thinning my hair ( and it's been fucking with my self esteem and image heavily especially since I've been undecided with whether or not I want to start hrt at 30 and well... I'd rather be a bald dude if I'm gonna lose my hair, so it's very disheartening and just sux...) . There's that, I've had several teeth break and have dealt with that for about 4 years now with and without pain.

Partner is also funemployed but recently found something he just hasn't started yet and the rate will be a little low because it's training first and all that. I myself have looked but I have been pretty pessimistic about work culture , pay, etc. Been kinda hoping I just don't wake up vs having to be abused as a worker. Gaslit, guilt tripped, and squeezed dry. Done. But I know I need to find something, I just don't have a degree or a trade, and my experience is in customer service and hospitality so everything is gonna suck, holy shit balls.

I only smoke weed if substance is a concern, poppers (amyl nitrate) as well, but that's been awhile and tbh if I had my way I'd be sober, but sober me is an ass without the therapy I desperately need.

I've just been letting myself go to waste I guess. Not working, not working out ( hard to do with a barebones shit diet, partly due to my partners aversion to beanis and taste for b.s. ez to make processed foods, I've also been just letting them make decisions on food because I don't have many preferences, but I should fix that. Hard to do with someone who thinks they know everything and honestly we've had plenty of arguments about it...), letting my room get pretty bad with clothes strewn everywhere, dishes not getting done or done very slowly, at least showering semi regularly though like once every two or three days at the worst. I think if me and my current s.o. were in a different spot it'd better, but technically he shouldn't be here and the LL has made it clear they don't want them here, so he's been hiding when LL/Roommate is home, and he doesn't have a place to go since his parents house has been taken over by his siblings that have ignored him and his parents wishes in order to do as they please, and he called his older brothers probation officer because of his abuse of fent and by extention neglecting his 4 children. So kinda a narc but at the same time reasonable since he's been more of a dad than the actual dad.

The LL has also given me a silly written notice asking for the back pay which he settled on 1,510 that he wants by july 10th(I've been putting off making a post like this for awhile)(rent is $400, good on paper, but my room has a tin roof that turns it into an oven from 10-6) with ways to lessen the amount and potentially be paid but I'm still checked out of the situation and couldn't care less. Add to that, the floor that was water damaged was replaced, BUT the moldy subfloor was not. There's dry rot and mold under the kitchen sink, front porch light still doesn't work since hurricane Ian(2022), the lights don't flicker as bad in the kitchen anymore but the breaker trips every once in awhile while using the microwave, the bathroom still has a weird gap after the tub was replaced and the floor is still bare poured concrete where the toilet is at from when they fixed the outside plumbing and laundry room outlet for the washer.

Way back in 2018 I totaled my car with no insurance and as of right now have no valid drivers license and feel as though if I had that reinstated and a reliable car I wouldn't be in this mess.

If there are any class traitors willing to risk a modicum of their income to help me get out of this big ass hole I've fallen into, I think about 6 or 7k would barely cover every little thing that has gone wrong the past 6 years 10k to be absolutely safe and to be able to make strides after what seems like an eternity in purgatory.

Now for the comrades who aren't as financially able but still want to help, anything helps. It really does considering I lost out on $45 yesterday and by extention I won't hit the $100 for donating twice in a week.

After what's happened with a user here ( imo it's not their fault at the end of the day, but can't say one way or the other since I can't know the whole situation) idk what kind of rules or systems are in place now vs when I last posted on an account I no longer have access to, when I needed a new bike, groceries and a cheap phone. But I'll put my Cash app at the bottom and if there's anything y'all can spare, again it's greatly appreciated.

(NGL Reaaaallly hoping someone too generous for this world and their income bracket makes my day because on top of all this my mom and her bf(situationship partner? Idk...) have been homeless and she's developed melanoma and has been having identity theft issues along with just not having money and getting screwed over by clients with any painting jobs they line up. And it'd make me feel waaay less of a shit azz child despite the tenuous relationship she's fostered because of the shit azz relationship she's had with her mother and family...sigh and so on. Shit sucks yo, kinda why I don't want kids despite wanting kids of my own since I was little so I could be the one to get it 'right'...)

If anyone has any leads, job opportunities, resources, anything for (doxxing myself a lil) Pinellas county fl, more specifically St Petersburg that'd also be appreciated. Been using indeed and getting the same jobs over and over and no interviews or calls. Have thought about working on a cruise ship but reading job reviews and then seeing news articles about being left in port is giving me 3rd thoughts about it despite how much I could potentially squirrel away.

https://cash.app/$HexBeara

I'm sorry to be back so soon after my last post. But rent is almost due, and I only got 20 dollars from the previous post. Luckily I have a job, but it's not enough atm. Hoping for more money this time around, though I'm not one to impose.

paypal: [email protected] cashapp: $steelsorcerer

I have been so extremely grateful for all the help. I am in need of some emergency dinner cash tonight as I have literally not eaten yet today. Please help if you can. My cash app is $KodyMartinGerba. Thank you.

Find myself needing a few things around the house, including food. Unforfunately, i don't get paid until tomorrow or Thursday, and im diggign myself out of the hole of rent and bills I'm in. Paypal and Zelle are best, holler at me for info!

Thanks comrades