Ok so update to my last post: im probably gay.

I always thought I was bisexual, maybe leaning towards men even. But then I decided to seriously date men (and hook up with one also lol), and like idk. I feel like the parts that I liked were just things that made me feel feminine, like the contrast between our bodies or when they take me out and I feel like a woman on a date with a man. I'm sure straight women also enjoy those things, but I'm not sure that Im actually very attracted to male bodies. And maybe I don't actually like it when they touch me.

But what really convinced me lol is that I also matched with another trans person and I'm way, way more interested in them than any guy I've talked to. Like I didn't totally get their gender at first cause they didn't say much about it, but just my instinctual reaction was "this person is really pretty and I want to get to know them". It turns out they're like transfem non-binary. We got coffee the other day and Im going to see them again on Friday, which im like really we excited about.

But even if that doesn't work out it seems like pretty good evidence. Like my reaction to men has just been increasingly meh and as soon as I randomly found someone who wasn't a man I like instantly had a crush on them lol. So yeah, being gay is ok I guess.