I suppose you’re right it’s not worth holding myself back to play sports, but the thing is it’s not centered around this. As I said I like how I look on t and e. I’m stuck in the middle of this choice. I’m thinking NB hrt would keep me good at the sport I already am, but if I switched even further I might have more opportunities in the future.

Going on E won't affect the size of your body, possibly the size of your hands a little bit over the course of a few years, but it's not like people with small hands

I didn’t mean to imply otherwise. I said I wished it did. I wish my fingers were small enough to get certain holds.

To me it comes off as you caring more about showing off or being seen as good at something, than actually enjoying climbing for more intrinsic reasons.

Lol, I’m not trying to be the best or something. I’ll never be as good as a lot of the people I climb with. My worry is that I’ll regress further and thus be able to enjoy less of it after rapidly improving (while I had t). It will be less fun to climb if I can’t do what I could before. I’ve looked it up before and people said transitioning had them dropping a few grades.

if it's anything like learning other new skills then I'm sure as you do it more you'll discover that there's a lot more to it than raw strength.

I know this, but previously my individual strength was raw strength. My technique is getting better, but I’ll miss it.