Yeah it's like that, development for trans people really varies. Maria is so stuck in her bullshit that she's basically the same person she was at age 20. Also the narration does say she knew she was trans at age 20, so she prolly spent a long time not being out, I think. The non-represser is me, and the older person who went through repression is my wife =) I love that it's making you think like that, (also I hate rich kids such as the one you mention) but I'm certain there're people here with experiences very similar to yours, more than just my wife. I was surprised to hear from khizuo that ze is in similar circumstances to me at age 17, which is still nuts to me but super cool.

To be real, reading Maria has having autism or more likely ADHD has textual support. Look at her scarfing adderall. Yeah the hands thing is kind of ND generally. Binnie herself is not ND that I know of, but Nevada reads like someone who is audhd or something and doesn't know it, actually.

That first passage you quote fucks hard, I love it. Imogen Binnie go on chapo tbh, I'd die to see that.

Yea, shooting for what you want to be is a good goal tbh. I feel half duty-bound and half passionately invested in being an elder figure for the dorky babytrans. I'm bad at it too, but I want to help, I mostly like doing it. There was never a decade-long transitioner on /tttt/ or in the discords when I was a damn kid... only, like Torrey Peters says, a bunch of young trans women who, like baby elephants who lose their parents, lash out violently at eachother and behave antisocially. And that shit sucks, fuck that. I want to be part of an alternative to that kind of space.

Yeah that is this entire mega, lmao... and tbh I've also had people throwing Whipping Girl at me, claiming I'm a transmisogynist or whatever, so while Maria is a dork that's almost relatable. lel