idk what I'm looking for from this post. But I'm honestly fine with how my face looks. But unless I look feminine, most bi-women are going to keep assuming I want to dom and top without even asking (aka treat me like a man...). Lesbians won't be attracted to me. 99% of people won't perceive me as a women and interact the same they do with other women

I think I can get FFS lined up in some months but I feel extremely weird changing my face so drastically and suddenly. I'm dissociating extremely hard rn just thinking about it. I can't imagine how bad it'd be after the surgeries. I feel like I'd lose a big part of my identity. I'm deathly afraid of looking into a mirror and not recognizing the face staring back at me

There's something about the face being by far the premier identifier for human beings here. Because if they were easy/safe, I totally would get surgeries to contract my shoulders and ribcage in an instant LOL

Honestly, so much of what I do to transition is just so the world will interact with me like a woman. I also quite like my "natural" deep heavy 75hz voice tbh. But I'm still voice training at a light valley girl 200-250hz range because I can't look masculine and have that deep a voice for people to treat me like a woman. At least the voice training is okay though, it was something that I developed in steps + I can still talk nearly the same as I did previously when I want so I don't feel divorced from who I am

Gender in its current form is so fucking stupid I want something like what some indigenous cultures had

sdfas

Because the implication here is that she thinks having sex with black men is more degrading/humiliating and getting beat up by them is like, more "savage" or something than other races

My liberal friends all disagree with me and thinks I'm kinkshaming, being racist myself, or invalidating her "preferences" or something (which I think is usually also racist, having racial preferences unless there's some shared culture/experiences)

I'm mostly just curious, I will not change my paying habits regardless

"For myself, I see China as hope. Hope that a colonized, brutalized, primitive and humiliated country, can rise above its past — refuse to be weak any longer — rebuild itself from nothing, with iron resolve, and become too strong to be overrun by the West again! Hope that a nonwhite, non-Western country can look deep within itself and find its own solutions to its problems — proving that (foolishly) trusting the West to guide us isn't necessary! Proof that if we can do what the Chinese did, there will be no limits for us. Imagine a world where the US, France, Britain, Australia, are no more important than Uzbekistan or Paraguay. A world where the World Court might be headquartered in Kuala Lumpur, the World Bank in New Delhi, the United Nations in Jakarta, the IMF in Cairo. A world liberated from the US banking system and the dollar as its reserve currency, so that Washington can no longer tell 200 other countries who they can and can't trade with. A world where an American can be tried for war crimes at the Hague, not just an Iraqi or Liberian or Serb. A world where we don't hear about a non-Western-made vaccine and grunt to ourselves, Oh, it must be poison. A world where we don't have to immigrate to the same countries that turned ours into hellholes, to work as sales clerks or taxi drivers, or even if we're brilliantly employed — to drain our brains from our homelands in the best of cases, and use them to reinforce Western riches and supremacy in exchange for a fat paycheck, instead of using them to make our own countries semi-habitable. When I hear that China has built its own Space Station, landed a rover on Mars, ended extreme poverty, built the Earth's biggest city, dam, telescope, 5G network, highway, air purifier, or whatever the heck it is that will come tomorrow — I feel the same pride as if I were Chinese. It's not happening for all of us, but it's happening for one of us and that's a start. There's got to be such a thing as developing-country nationalism — a common nationalism for all the countries that were colonized and plundered, and remain economically and politically captured by their ex-rulers. A nationalism for the Global South"

Full text (CW it's long and the rest of it is not as inspiring as this snippet): https://www.quora.com/What-do-you-think-about-China-4/answer/Ismail-Bashmori

Slightly oily skin, some PIE + PIH from acne when I was younger. Some tiny bumps on forehead, probably because I haven't exfoliated in a long time. My face skin tolerates actives super well and I don't get dried out/breakout by them. Even accutane barely made my skin dry (rest of body and lips got destroyed though)

Daily routine I'm planning on starting on (I've used + liked all of these in the past before after a ton of experimentation, though never all at once):

AM (no waiting between any layers)

Garnier micellar pink cap (for cleansing)

Thayers toner (to wipe off cleanser + reset pH levels)

AESTURA Atobarrier 365 Cream

TO Azelaic Acid Suspension 10% (for PIE + PIH + exfoliating (but does it even exfoliate if I put this over my moisturizer?))

PM

Garnier micellar pink cap

Thayers toner

TO Niacinamide 10% (for skin texture)

Adapalene 0.3% (retinoid for anti-aging)

Wait 10 minutes for this to sink in

AESTURA Atobarrier 365 Cream

And then once a week I'll microneedle my face with TO 2% hyaluronic acid + b5 before + after

And rarely if I give a shit I'll put on some Biore UV or waterproof Skin Aqua sunscreens. Can't find the links though

Are there any better products I can swap my current ones with?

Any products I should introduce? (I feel like I could add one more active in AM after toner and before moisturizer, maybe a gentle AHA/BHA for more exfoliation?)

Should I change the order of anything around?

https://www.ctvnews.ca/world/north-korea-teens-get-12-years-hard-labour-for-watching-k-pop-1.6733216