Here's some reflection after the fact. Hated puberty. Hated getting hair all over. Never felt like a man, always a boy. Never really enjoyed penetrative sex, always felt weird to me
Relate so much to this. Probably the biggest proof to shut up my lingering egg denial...
the joy I feel being myself is worth it
I'm glad you've finally been able to become who you are!
The lack of liberalism turns you on