Tonight I had a 15 minute consult call with a therapist who's also trans and seems pretty based. First session is on Thursday :>

Not even out of the house today and already feel like crap. Got dressed, looked at myself in the mirror, instantly crushed with the dysphoria hammer.

Determined to make it to pride but the outfit I had saved for today is gonna haveta wait for another day when I can bear to look at myself.

Trying to get advice without making it too obvious when what I'm going to do: I'm telling you now I have plans that I cannot share with you right now because the haters will sabotage me.

TRANGONDER FACTS: trans women's hair is not naturally blue, actually. if you see a trans woman with blue hair, it's actually colored from all of the blue E pills she's been taking

I'm coming out to my brother (who I'm staying with) tonight and I have no idea how it's gonna go. Wish me luck.

Not doing great this week. Hopeful next week will be better. All the comments here at least make me feel not alone :) hope you are doing great!

Cis people who browse this mega "for fun"

We need you help

Might fuck around and go to pride for the first time this year

i have too much pride

when is shame month...

I can feel myself withering. I'm only like a month removed from heavy psychic damage due to [freakish queer book], and already I feel I will waste away if I do not engage in something fucking gay.

I snuck up on wifey and pulled her into a long, deep kiss, very nice. However I think I need to read some gay shit too...

I seem to have contracted the trans mind virus 😔 you might need to get tested.

Hello everyone!!! I hope everyone will have a great week, and a happy pride!!! Much love 🥰🥰🥰🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🥰🥰🥰

Bottom dysphoria these past days

MORE PRIDE LET'S GO

Having incredible health anxiety. I unfortunately contracted symptomatic genital hpv, and I can't like relax or anything. I am deathly afraid of spreading it all over my body (I know this is unlikely). I am constantly convincing myself that I am getting warts here or there, it's really driving me insane :(. Now I'm convincing myself I am having a mouth herpes outbreak because my lip in one part is very very slightly red. I wish my brain wasn't like this. I wish I could just relax -.-

who the fuck invented body hair this stuff fucking sucks

posting in the PP waiting room

I bought a couple cute trans pride enamel pins to put in my hat. Also got a couple of demi/ace pride pins for my hubby as a surprise. I got my meds today as well.

need to redistibute the stolen wealth of the global north like i need to redistribute this fat from my waist to my ass

Went for a run and started weightlifting again today.

Today I've been feeling... Different. That 1am near-crying thing... "yesterday" mustve done something

My party got a table at the local non-corporate pride thing in our city, and I'm excited but also pretty worried. Last year one of the communist orgs got their table trashed by anarchists and the "anti-tankie" sentiment here can have real consequences. I hope me and my queer comrades bringing lots of water and vegan snacks appeases them.

I found space for another pronoun, but I'm not really sure I like any of the other options

i feel like girl rotting today, which is weird because i never had the urge or feeling of doing that before starting HRT. progress I guess?

shit i combusted in my magic flight launch box fuck

now i'm way higher than i planned to be because i had to ghost the smoke so it wouldn't stink up the whole stinkin' house and i'm reading hvac medical research papers about how odorant particles disperse based on room pressure. the taste of this pineapple hi-chew is making me feel like i've done dxm

anyway i was hiking the other day and came across these beetles i haven't seen before getting freaky on a reishi mushroom, which they also call hemlock varnish shelf around here. the dust on it is s p o r e s

looked up the beetles when i got home and get this: "pleasing fungus beetles." that's what they're called.

are you kidding me

who comes up with this stuff?

People always said that my nipples would hurt like shit, but for now it's a solid 1/10. I still sleep on my stomach, which I thought I would have to stop. I like touching my chest, cause it's tangible change and progress.

Just asked two more of my male friends if they'd press The Button and they said yes lmao

I have been feeling much better the last few days, depression wise. I hope it stays that way for a bit, I kinda forgot how it felt to not be depressed. Didn't really change anything about my sourrundings, so I hope it's actually the hormones helping.

I also am enjoying voice training, it's fun, and I always liked playing with my voice. When I was a child I could imitate other people, maybe I'll get there again. I also have been making progress with it, I am getting higher than I was two weeks ago.

I wish I could just jump forward 10 years and have already worked through all this hard stuff. But no I gotta slog through it and barely make any progress ever.