Waiting in pre-op now.

If you don't hear from me within 24 hours, I legit died~ ✨💖✨

Edit: hit 900 for me

Waow, historic thread Sorry I had to go SLEEP and CUDDLE MY WIFE and all that!

I lived

Which means... I didn't die a man! Transition time!

stop constantly comparing yourself to cis women and making yourself feel bad CHALLENGE: LEVEL: IMPOSSIBLE

good morning

oooohhhh i know this thread is about to close but i saw I Saw The TV Glow and now i am unbelievably big sad

I have to get a safe and routine medical procedure (that I've had before) done today, but I'll need to be put under anesthesia. This is a really huge trigger for my anxiety, so I'm really scared. Tbh, I want to just cancel it and run. Could hardly sleep last night because I was so panicked.

Tomorrow, when this is all done, I think I want to tell my wife my new name and "officially" start transition

Thinking of making a resources / help / psa thread for condensing down some old pins into one post and just have it exist for a long time

WTF?! We're at 871 comments?! I step away for one day and all you awesome folks just wildly pump our numbers. I love it!

lol, make that 871 cause I accidentally double posted.

900 queer comments later

Okay folks

Imagine if we start doing daily trans-megathreats, to fit all the comments, would be funny.

I posted the other day about presenting femme in public, forgetting, and then catching myself in the mirror for a great surprise.

Well, the opposite just happened. I hade to take off my nail polish, and I looked down at my feet just now, and I'm like, "whose fucking feet are those!?"

A year ago I choose they/them pronouns with much hemming and hawing about if it was okay because I was totally cis. Eventually I settled on yes, but with a note in my bio that I was totally cishet. And uh, now here we are, in the biggest trans thread on lemmy.

I accidentally shrunk my new skirt in the wash last night.

Went in a black jumpsuit for pride, did my makeup, like Emma Ruth Rundle in this video https://youtu.be/TXCjEKpwtRc?si=bXqBv_HnMtVzUT-7 I felt so hot, my ace ass kissed a bunch of shes, gays and theys. First pride was really nice.

I like how many mods this comm has

>check modlog

>transphobes have fallen, millions must be banned

New purge is looking fuckin awesome

We are soooooo close to 900! Come on one last push!

God has smote me with a tummy ache on the last day of pride

depression vent (It's long)

Y'all I feel like shit (bland, dull, bad, idk how else to describe it). I'm hoping this is just because I'm on the tail end of my injection cycle, but if it's not I'm probably about to be put into the ringer. I really should look into therapy or something because I get the smallest wins (especially after starting E) and I say "wow E cured my depression I thought I had already gotten over" and then I get back into it and it feels worse than it did before. It could also be Bipolar or something of that vein, or even worse its just something fun that could possibly come from AuDHD (realizing as I am typing this that it would have been better for the neurodiverse comm but whatever I need to get it out there). Despite being on Hexbear now and getting to talk to all of you, I feel lonlier than I have probably ever felt. I got a taste of this almost a year ago when most of the people I know either moved or became too occupied, and I was like "this is fine, I like isolation anyway, I like my personal time" and then my family was gone and I realized how much I despise it. After my egg cracked though I suddenly found myself wanting to spend more time with other people. The issue is, after "preferring" isolation for so long (in combination with my AuDHD and whatever else is going on inside my head) I am left without (what I feel) are adequate skills to meet new people, make new friends, even talk to other peers. The farthest I can get in conversations was my (now ex) cashier job and in passing with strangers while walking/hiking because I have had a lot of time to hone scripts for these situations. When I don't have a script, however, and I try to do something, it sends me into an anxiety-ridden spiral (I struggle to learn because I just form scripts, these don't help me improve). This is so bad that it even happens on here; It's the reason I often don't know what to say, can't respond to others appropriately, etc (Y'all have just been getting a lot of this , I'm sorry I just haven't really been able to put much into words).

TL;DR (CW: excessive swearing)

Fuck my AuDHD, Fuck Depression (or Bipolar or whatever the fuck), Fuck Social Anxiety (and anxiety in general), and of course, I'm extremely sorry I haven't been present. How horrible is it that I disassociate from an internet forum and just enter lurker mode again. It makes me feel horrible and like a stalker

So that you all don't have to read these if you don't want to (or try to respond to it), or just want some positivity out of me, I can still give it. One of my friends is using my new name now, and I starting voice training today! I thought I would enjoy it, since I like singing and all, but it is a different beast. I'm used to vocalizing, but I'm rusty, haven't had to do it in a while, and I sound like some sort of combination between a dead animal and voice cracks (the voice cracks aren't bad, I know, but it's jarring).

Death to cis, Luna

900 :)

can't believe it's been over four years since I first came out as not cis I was one of the first people in my high school at the time to do it

I need to just get a strong internal sense of gender. It's kinda hard when no one sees me :/

i desire more emotes of mice

This comment has no relation to being trans but I decided to post it here anyways :))))

I feel a little weird about terms like "girlkisser" or whatever now. Like yes, certainly, I love it when women but also uh, my wife, nonbinary goth from the void. I kinda feel like some of the gendered lesbiany terms don't adequately summarise anymore. Which feels kinda weird, because I've already settled on busting the term "lesbian" backward to include all the people I might be attracted to who aren't binary women.

I can by now speak without my chest vibrating, but not consitently. Still fun. Singing is also much more fun now.

That comment count

Over 900~~0~~

As a note, I post at noon EDT every Monday. So you folks have about 7.5 hours to pump up those numbers