I managed to stumble across a person who happened to be an auDHDer like myself in a game just now out of blind luck. They had very similar academic interest to mine so we had a fabulous yap session/taking turns infodumping session.

It was pertinent to the discussion at the time so I mentioned the anarchist Ivan Illich's work to them and they were immediately very interested in his stuff. It was definitely in keeping with my "Chuck 'em leftwards and hope they land somewhere good" strategy.

Apparently I still got it in me.

Also Linux stay winning

Ughhhhhhhhh the waitress at the cafe im at is a super fucking cute trans girl. I look like dogshit right now and i dont know how to talk to people irl aghhhhh

Hello mega thread I got gay married. I am now in a rather nice municipal records office submitting my papers so that the stinking landlord legally cannot stop me from moving in with my partner.

My tits really hurt. I guess this is just something that happens when I get a cold now

Edit: god this really feels like a monkey’s paw curse. Jokes on them though cause I can take it

Edit 2: KITTY NO!! DONT STEP THERE!!!

fucking white queer libs i am so fucking done i was on this nice ace kink server, with my partner partner notices a sus profile, and i autotranslate the hebrew on it, and it's a clear zionist. i even asked my friend who speaks hebrew and he told me it was an israeli nationalist slogal. i alert the mods about this, and the mod i speak to says they'll talk to the other mods.

they tell me to suck it up and they won't do anything. it's not a political space after all (LIKE FUCKING HELL IT ISN'T). this was already too far but i didn't do anything, except privately explain to the mod that this was the wrong decision and why, and ask they convey that to the rest of the mod team.

next day a mod shuts down a conversation that drifted into politics.

so i just fucking posted a song in solidarity with palestine, announced i was leaving because the server is tolerating zionists, and left. wish i'd posted screenshots of the mod convo before i left but hindsight is 20/20 i guess. i was told afterwards by a member that this guy had been much more vocal about his zionism on another server and caused a whole drama.

just. how hard is it to not include reactionaries in queer spaces? this place would boot out anyone who came in with fascist profile shit. zionism is a form of fascism but somehow that doesn't count? like no fash but sure, you support an ethnostate actively committing genocide, why don't you come into our safe space? well great, now there is no safe space. i loved that place. it was the only social space i felt safe in a sexual sense.

does anyone have a recommendation of a queer kink discord server than does not include zionists?

I need pussy

either bottom surgery or someone else's pussy i need both tbh

note to self : don't use any kinda trans lingo outside trans spaces. got some dude trying to start shit elsewhere cuz i said a character was gender

Feeling so much queer joy today 💖

I'm SO glad I made it passed the initial excitement phase. I was so worried that I was only doing this because it's exciting, and, once the excitement wore off, I wouldn't be interested anymore.

But the absolute normalcy of my gender is SO much better. When I can present fem in front of my friends and hear my pronouns just as a normal fact of life rather than something I have to build up courage for, it just HITS.

The more I come out of the closet, the more real it all feels, and doubts start melting away. I honestly can't wait to try E!

Hello new trans mega

I went for two different walks today and my legs are feeling p o w e r f u l

Night walk had a pretty moon view ✨

One week of HRT today and all that's really changed is my balls hurt

I texted a couple of my local trans friends about having some sort of friendsgiving thing the weekend before regular thanksgiving. I used to get invited to those in college and I miss them. Kind of to my surprise, everyone was really excited and like 3 people volunteered to help cook. I'm honestly so happy I have queer friends who I can recreate college with lol.

My friend just sent me a decade old photo of myself when I had a huge beard. Just wearing swim shorts. I'm having complicated feelings.

Like, idk... I'm handsome, but it's okay to think you're handsome and still want to transition. Sometimes feels like I'm fucking something up.

I mean, I look at recent photos of me in makeup/dresses, and I'm still handsome/pretty, but... Idk, it would've just been easier I guess.

Also I had super hairy legs. REALLY glad those are gone. I had actually forgotten what they looked like lol

Gonna and for a while, comrades. Got some things I need to do. Be back soon! Make sure to keep the cis down in my absence.

My sister is complaining I inherited our mom's hair genetics and she didn't, but like, at least you inherited her chromosomes, don't think you should complain

We need more trans fox girls!

If I were to ever look at myself in the mirror and see a pretty person, I'm not sure if I'd have the emotional bandwidth to be able to control what happened next.

I think my feet have changed because my winter boots from last year no longer fit. Which on one hand cool because estrogen is working, on the other hand now I need to buy new/used winter boots

trans friends: relaxing to webfishing

me: queueing cs2 to unwind

Looking back I'm surprised how long it took for my egg to crack. I watched the Korra avatar and was wishing I was a lesbian, saw the Netflix Shera and wished I was able to transform into a woman and be a lesbian with Catra. Also watched some anime where a guy cross dressed for like one episode and I was wishing I could "cross dress" myself. Wild how oblivious I was

Might just eat cookies for dinner

I have, once more, been extremely gay

transness will continue until morale improves

Hear me out; what if we just gave everyone with treatment resistant depression and dissociation a taste of HRT and saw what happened?

i paid for someone's hormones cuz i accidentally got a whole bunch of money because trump winning the election made my bitcoin stash skyrocket and the person was struggling to buy crypto and i just wanted them to have the thing

Met a frog friend on the window of the gym outside in front of the treadmill I was using

(also I think I'm developing a crush on somebody there and it's the first time I've felt kinda like that about someone in like half a decade and idk really how to feel about it. I'm really ruminating hard about "wait we're they just being nice or was there something there?" I'm really bad at this but they're really cute and I just feel like a gross ogre talking to them by comparison and can't get a read on the tone of our interactions. Their smile seemed genuine to me though and they're friendly? Idk)

unchecked transphobia! at the Irish web fishing server:( just got the game and now I never wanna play it again. im prejudiced against the country folk on this island ngl. fuck me for wandering out of overtly communist online spaces for like, 20 minutes i guess lol. it's bad out there.

The radical left has converted me from a puppygirl to a catgirl :3

Edit: my PFP was briefly slightly nsfw hope nobody saw that

a second uninstall has hit tiktok

imma try to work past my lifelong posting anxiety and lurk less, i have gay takes that must be heard

Continuing to struggle with the feeling like I don’t belong, neither as a trans person or even more broadly as a queer person. It feels like a joke—I’m just a straight cis dude in all but name.

CW dysphoria:

Goodnight comrades, here's part of the code of conduct that i think about alot

Be aware of your own enjoyment of the site.

• If you find yourself no longer having fun, do something else. There are many different comms on Hexbear, and many different ways to shitpost and have fun.
• If the site as a whole is just not cutting it for you, take a break. We'll still be here when you get back. Nothing should compel you to stay.

https://hexbear.net/code_of_conduct

!CW Venting, social dysphoria:!<

!Feeling kind of shitty and just generally lost in my transition. There's a lot of stuff about it that feels daunting and that I don't know how to move forward with. Lately I've been wishing I had a cis girl friend who could help me out, and be a kind of 'big sister' I could go to for advice. But most of the women I'm friends with are very butch, and haven't felt super equipped to help me. And the one friend I have who has been able to help, moved multiple States away, and while she's been able to help me with some stuff, the distance has impacted our friendship, and I'm just feeling sad about the whole thing!<